Monopoly (No, Not the Board Game!)

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What are the characteristics of Monopoly?

No, silly. I don't mean the board game. Although I love the card version of the board game as well (Monopoly Deal *_*) - Monopoly is a situation in which a single company, organization or a group has a control or owns all or nearly all of the market; for a given product or a set service (Miniature extract from Investopedia, read 2014).

There are three main characteristics of Monopolization by a company or an organization. These are as shown below:

Golden Characteristic 1 -  There is no competition between companies

Golden Characteristic 2 -  The company reaps an enormous and abnormal sum of profit

Golden Characteristic 3 -  There are barriers to entry for other competitors

Monopolization - although an avid term to many third world countries; and is often seen in a horrible light, does have its own advantages to try own over it's disadvantages. The advantages can be seen such that because one organization owns the market, the pricing for the items or services are non-changing and not made a variable depending on what situations may bring. For example, it can be confusing and taxing to have customers needing to make millions of inquiries over the wide scope of items and services offered by different companies or organizations to find the perfect match to their desires - rather than having a universal company to deal with. 

Other than that, this also helps the government in their spending. Referring back to Golden Characteristic 2 - in which the company reaps a gargantuan amount of profit; in the case whereby the company is owned by the government (which is more likely so, and if not then taxes), then the large profit can be used for capital investment or the sorts - probably for the betterment of the country in terms of infrastructure. Remember that the term united we stand can play a huge part here, there is a higher likeliness of the business or organization can penetrate national markets given that most of the funds are concentrated on one business alone rather than being divided among several groups. Another factor that contributes to this is wholesale - which means the monopolizing company can obtain their stocks with a discounted price, and then hand it over to their customers cheaper.

Monopoly in itself is a huge word to be playing with in the solidarity of our palms. To contradict the advantages as stated, there are also firm disadvantages. The first disadvantage will be fiercely obvious to eyes of the public. Referring to Golden Characteristic 1 - and then 3; There are little to no competition between companies, meaning that the monopolizing company gets to become the ruler or king of the Market. This becomes more solidly enforced when there are barriers preventing other companies from taking part in the Market. Because of this, there is little to no pressure for the monopolizing company to do well in what they do - resulting in potential slacking of the workforce in the workplace or put generally; the company. Onto a worser note, these monopolizing companies resort to reap benefits while exploiting their customers. After all, these customers have no choice but to either accept the non-satisfactory services or leave it and live without it. Customers will often complain and rage all over the media in order to get these companies to notice their plea - but it will go unnoticed. After all, one or two missing customers will not affect its earnings.

Price wars can also occur to the benefit of the customers if monopoly does not exist. Each company eye-ing the market will provide a better and more affordable service that can capture the longing hearts of the customers in the battlefield of earnings, and the best company wins. Monopoly on its own does not allow this to occur, and many monopolizing companies actually mark up prices and practice price discrimination - in which the prices for goods and services vary on who the customers are. For example, the branch of a certain company located in a certain area might charge higher for their products compared to another location based on the earnings of the people in those locations itself. Because their goods will never fail to leave their grasp and go into choiceless consumer's hands, they can offer inferior products and services to their own chagrin.

Another disadvantage of monopoly is that black markets will tend to exist. Since there are no other competitors to offer an item or a product at a cheaper price or of a higher par or standard, agents of the black market will offer illegal schemes and methodism by exploiting various loopholes in the Market. For example, many smokers tend to buy untaxed ciggarettes by illegal means for a cheaper price rather than ciggarettes on a contrary of taxed prices resulting in around four or five times the original priced amount. 

The rich will become richer and the poor will become poorer. They will NEVER be able to break free from the chain of poverty if monopoly triumphs. Putting aside all advantages and disadvantages - monopoly will mean marked up prices. Adding salt to the wound, government taxes may occur. For example, Milkpowder for babies will cost around double or even triple it's original price - and breadmakers from lower income families will not have the incentive or funds to feed and raise their own blood and sweat, their young. They result in illegal means to raise their family in whatever ways they can; stealing, kidnapping and killing for money. Cars will be hijacked and then sold in other countries, or stolen just because the taxes imposed on them are too high to be longed for by ordinary citizens under the sun. People who are under the stress of these duple or triplefold multitudes will be under stress - and humans become desperate and impatient under pressure. Still wonder why the crime rate increases?

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All facts aside, my original plan was to complain about the inferior services by the company monopolizing the fixed-lines in my own country - having workforce far too lazy to even come and inspect the area I currently reside in, cancelling their appointment a number if times and rescheduling it, only to once again break their promise. 

However, I don't see how complaining there can let me achieve any significant benefit - so I am going to once again play with lady-luck on submitting another form to install these fixed-lines in my area for phone and unlimited internet, not only for my own benefits but for the betterment of everyone residing in my current neighbourhood.

Special Thanks:

http://knownai.hubpages.com/hub/Advantages-And-Disadvantages-Of-A-Monopoly-Market
http://www.economicshelp.org/microessays/markets/advantages-monopoly/
http://www.investopedia.com/terms/m/monopoly.asp


XOXO

KiiKiiYu

I don't usually complain about the internet speed

But when I do, the speed sucks ass. 

So I moved about one kilometre away from my old to my new house about a year ago - from the Muara Tabuan Area, Kuching to the Tabuan Tranquility P5 area IN THE SAME CITY.

Usually, fixed landlines for telephones will be set up quickly, but in the case of Kuching and up the status ladder my beloved country Malaysia, there is a system of monopolization and so all of the fixed landlines are managed by one company, Telekom Malaysia.

As a student and also an avid gamer, I am always in need of an internet (yeah, typical third world bastard) and it is amazingly irritating and boring having to live without phonelines and internet. So, my dad and I decided to send an official letter to Telekom Malaysia to "beg" them to install telephone lines in the housing area (which is less than a hundred metres away from an area with telephone lines - and the mini station). They reciprocated by answering that this so called "project" only "might" be proposed and even if the so called project is proposed, the decision will be governed mainly by the viability and the budget which is you know - very very convincing :|

So anyways, we went and got a Maxis Broadband internet plan - which looks VERY irresistable indeed. Although a quota is imposed contrary to the unlimited internet plan we had before, at least we had internet - or so we thought.

The best plan we took were for 12 GB of quota, with  36 GB quota for off peak (2:00 fucking a.m. to 8:00 a.m. - although it did make me wake up early everyday which is a good thing I guess). After the quota is used up, we are promised to be able to still surf the internet with a speed limit of 128 kbps (1.28 Mbps) instead of 21 Mbps - which is not bad to be precise...

Until we realized the horrible truth - the promised speed of up to 21 Mbps and up to 128 kbps were infact phonies. I only get to see the highest download speed of 10 Mbps instead of the promised 21 Mbps, and for the 128 kbps... well, see for yourself. (AM I USING JARING? WHY DOES THIS REMIND ME OF A DIAL UP LINE?)

We did try to contact customer service to ask for any possible solution to survive with this - and we indeed got a reply, which is applaudable - but not very helpful. (Looks like they have too much money to spend on SMS)

Trying to search for a better alternative, we tried to be directed to Maxis Fibre, instead of having a customer service representative answer the call, we were set to listen to a neverending Maxis advertisement for around fifteen minutes before we gave up and proceeded to spend the rest of our more "worthless" time using more "useful" things, like losing weight and gaining muscles.

And so, we decided to be hopeful - for the day that Telekom doesnt monopolize installs fixed lines in our area (TABUAN TRANQUILITY PH5 \o/ ) or that Maxis actually becomes more competent improves the quality of their channels for a faster speed. We customers dont want to pay for trash! want a better quality, not just quantity of broadband subscriptions with feeble speeds :3

Kuusou Rumba [ Cover ] - A LOL PASTIME

So yeah, this is my pastime. A friend intro-ed this anime to me to watch, and I got addicted to ALL the songs from the anime. Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei; meaning Goodbye, teacher in despair is an anime that teaches about the many horrors and evil of life and humanity itself in a comedic manner, and for me the dark humor is actually amusing. Well, watch it to learn it - I won't spoil anything for you!

I rarely post my singing online nowadays - and as stated in the past; it is because I inherited my dad's perfectionism. I don't really love posting things I feel is not up to par. And yeah, because my microphone is like half-busted and they're all so expensive, I guess this is up to par then :3 lifehacks!

XOXO

KiiKii the Yu

China's Web Junkies: Internet Addiction Documentary - Thoughts

Okay, so I got to watch this video about how China deals with kids who has internet addiction. Got me thinking, if I was living in China at their age - I would be sentenced to this place not for three to four months, but for life sentence. 

I was kind-of surprised at how they treat internet addiction as a disease or a disorder, but it is not that surprising because humanity have only plunged into the era of electronics just very recently. Previously, there should be a disorder named for people who are addicted to reading books and cooped up at home watching TV, and in the future probably one for people using the virtual device such as the Oculus Rift. 

I will not say that the way the government has decided to deal with this addiction is wrong - because it is truistic. If an able bodied person stays at home or outside almost 100% of the time to play, like one kid did in the video (he stayed outside for three days), there is no guarantee that he is able to contribute to his family, his society or even the world as it is. I agree to the fact as stated; teenagers and children seek comfort and company online because they feel neglected but not only their parents, but possibly their neighbours and peers as well; so they resort to seeking a haven for communication where they won't be judged according to their physical looks as long as they remain anonymous, in the form of an online avatar. They can become something they cannot be in real life, famous. skillful; name it. However, these addicts should learn how to divide their time to contribute and still be able to perform in these forms of E-sports. Wearing diapers just so that they can perform well in game is like wearing diapers to the exam hall so that you can perform well in exams.

 

The "electronic heroin" as claimed does have its drawback or "cold turkey" stage - thus rehabilitation is seen as something necessary. The environment should be comforting as well; not to imprison these kids in a jail of some sorts. Yes, they do make friends in the rehabilitation centre - this by itself is a bright point of the treatment. However, I do not agree that forced military training be done and that doctors and medical specialists be there for the reason of "treating their addiction". What I had in mind was that they be monitored and to do exercises to remain healthy, and be encouraged to participate in serene activities such as painting, tinkering or playing musical instruments. The medical specialists can then be there to monitor their health and to encourage a healthy lifestyle (what to eat, etc.).

The parents of these children might be neglecting their duties as parents early on because they are too busy with work. This is not surprising as asians are known to be workaholics. I am lucky to have a stay-home mother that tends to my needs. To repent for their actions early on, they send their young here instead of taking the long way of love, but the shortcut of shun. They forced their young to enter the centre with lies and even underhand tactics like DRUGGING them with sleeping pills which I actually find to be wicked.

I do have actual mixed feelings to this treatment of the teenagers, and I actually have some ideas on how these rehabilitative processes can be improved, as stated. Hopefully- just hopefully these addicts will be spared and be given a a trial and rehabilitation that is more on par with the standards of the moving hand on the clock - its the electronics era after all!

XOXO


KiiKii Yu
-- Special Thanks to Upworthy.com

The Deepest Sleep by Scriptwelder

First view of the game. So I needed to click play.

LOL NOPE. The title of the game sounds like some relaxing game with point-and-click but the disclaimer tells me otherwise. I probably wont play this for long, I am really reallly REALLLLY bad with scares when I'm alone so yeah. Since I really am alone, nope. No headphones. Nopeee I will leave my lights on even though its DAYTIME.

So I wake up in the middle of the night and someone is standing at the corner of my bed, watching me sleep. I hope its not Lisabelle or Carrie. Or any other stalkers that come to my room at night to take naked pictures of me sleeping and then distribute it to porn sites. Apparently I cannot move, and spam-clicking the window does not help me look out of it as well.

After spewing out my drinks from spam-clicking Lisabelle, I finally got some well deserved rest and began to explore my dreams. There's an empty shelf filled with white cotton candy, and a door that happens to be locked. After picking up a "sealed jar" from the bottom left floor, the door flings open. Such a gentleman.

AND HERE I AM IN THIS CORRIDOR WITH SOMETHING LOOKING LIKE EYES STARING AT ME. LOLNOPE LOLNOPE LOLNOPE LOLNOPE. I hope I'm not naked. 

Oh wait. Those are lights. Well, now I happen to be in a room with three doorless doors. My RPG senses tell me to explore the doors to the left and right first, because you know - there might be treasures.

What I found in the room on the left. So my name is Bert. I don't recall following any stupid travellers and no, I didn't know what was going to happen. Maybe its because I didnt play the prequels to this game. Silly me. Bottom feeders? do they feed of my bottom!? LOLNOPE level increased by 5.

What I found on the room to the right. Contrary to my predictions, they dont feed on my bottoms - unless they end up at the bottom layer of the "realm of dreams". I can ____________ by staying perfectly still? Yes, very helpful.

This skull helm seems to be in the middle of the... three door crossroads. It really is enough to make me go LOLNOPE. By using a screwdriver to scoop out a diamond from a statue on the room towards the right; previously you can give it an eye.

My instincts tell me that if I manage to find another diamond and give it another eye, it would come alove and bite my head off. LOLNOPE. NO. NO. NO. I will hide in the first room until I wake up from this nightmare.

Overall, I SCARE-rate this game a 8/10 because its scary. Yes, its pixelized - but it IS scary. I have always respected pixelized games too, because it gives a feeling of nolstagia. The controls (mouse) is smooth, and the crosshair is easy to aim with. Good job, Scriptwelder. I hope I sleep well tonight :|

A letter to my 16 year old (cute) self

To:  16 Year Old Self

                    Dear younger me, by the time you read this letter - you would be around my age or older. I write this letter in order to bash you for being so ignorantly naive about life and being less stupidly optimistic than your older self. I am here to tell you that your SPM or your Secondary Level Exams result does not matter. So what, if you managed to achieve grades with flying colors? When you are out there to work - no one actually wants to even know how you fare in secondary level educations or even bother to offer fucks if you brag about it.

There are many things that I do not want you to regret about when you reach my age, and I will list them down now - so make sure you take proper effort to widen your eyes and read them line-by-line, word-by-word you dipshit.

First and foremost; lose some fucking weight. No one takes you seriously until you lose those flabs and that double chin. People may tell you that it's okay to be fat since you're tall and whatnot, but I tell you - that advice is created by fat tall people, for fat tall people to feel better about themselves. It is never too early to start working out. It is never too early to eat healthy and exercise. Go, jog with your beloved pet - at which I will tell you straight out. She is going to be poisoned and put to sleep in two years time, so spend more time with her before you regret it.

Losing weight means people will finally look at you differently. You are no longer the snob that minds not what he eats, no longer the person looked down upon by others because you sweat a lot at hot places and get exhausted fairly quickly when doing a light chore. Don't be influenced by peer pressure. Live for yourself and be yourself, except thinner.

Secondly, do what you love to do - no matter what they say, no matter what critiques may throw at you. I do know that you love singing and voice acting in Japanese. I do know your mom and dad opposes this hobby, they feel that it is meaningless and stupid. In three years time, you are going to be mad addicted to KPOP, and even be in a depression because you cannot be in Korea, and you dont have the chance to become even a KPOP trainee even if you actually have talent buried inside you somewhere. It is hard for even me to tell you how not to be depressed - but depression is a painful thing. It feels like your heart is being pierced by needles, nails, glass - sharp objects, name it and it'l be there. You will not feel like doing anything else, but lie down in your bed and look sad all day. Your parents won't be very fond of this, and you will be ostracized. Fear not, this depression will only last for three to four months and you will be yourself again after you realize that you will never be able to become a KPOP trainee because you have reached the age limit for audition.

Continue singing on Youtube, you do not need to earn money and publicity. Just sing because you love to sing. Likes and comments from the public are just an added cherry on the cake you have baked. Update your videos more often, stop being a picky perfectionist that only uploads videos with perfect EVERYTHING. Look back at your old videos and realize that what is in them is not quality - but interest, happiness and ultimately uniqueness. 

Thirdly, do not be afraid of people. This does not mean that people should be afraid of you either - take initiative to know people, say hi to people. Make more friends - because ultimately your career is built on the number of friends you know. Having more friends also mean that you get to learn a lot of things from them, which is the basis of "Wisdom is Having Wise Friends".

There are many other things I want to advice and nail into you before you grow up, but I will narrow it down to three for now - not that I will send any more letters to you, because I feel that one is plenty. Things like "appreciate your unlimited internet, you will lose it in five years time" doesn't seem important enough - so I will let you learn how to handle them by yourself.

So until we meet; eat healthy, lose weight - appreciate everyone and love what you do.

Sincerest Regards,

Your 21 Year Old Self

Garden Diary Review (Mobile App)

Recently, I got into Garden Diary - a mobile application game by Windbell. I actually played Dungeon Diary by the same creator, so the mechanics were actually quite similar. 

When you first started the game, you will be prompted to create your main character (in terms of his/her appearance and name). This character will be the only character that is the most loyal - completing achievements in game will allow you to create another character to accompany your main character, but they will have a loyalty bar that either increases or drops whenever you finish or fail a quest respectively. Allies hired from pubs will presumeably have the same features as your other characters, but they're too costly to hire for a stingy gamer such as I. Something might happen once the loyalty bar hits 0, but I am not looking forward to find out!

The game features dungeons you can send your characters too (currently I only have two characters and Reborn Forest available for me). There are few types of dungeons; namely Free Quest, Collection, Escort and Extermination. Free Quests would be the one done more often to farm - and when it looks easy or possible to overcome, Escort and even Extermination (Extermination is the hardest). The dungeons may have multiple areas, increasing in difficulty in tandem with a higher area number selected to explore.

Once every dungeon exploration is complete, your characters will obtain stat points which you can invest. My character named Thanathos is purely wisdom based (as I have obtained a rule which allows him to cast spells with an 83% probability). Aeon, on the other hand is purely strength - explaining his high health (heart symbol) and physical attack (the sword symbol) compared to Thanathos' high magical attack (cane symbol). The shoe symbol indicates speed, which might influence the speed of which the dungeon is completed (Exploring to AREA 3 takes 1 hour). The blue star symbol indicates stress level, which increases if the character dies in battle. If you look closely, you can see the loyalty sign next to Aeon.

When the dungeon is completed successfully, items can be obtained. Most of the time, I sell these items as they have not much use for me currently. At the beginning of the game, I collected some wood to craft weapons for my characters, but now I just sell them. I keep the seemingly important stuff given to me by escorted NPCs, seeds that can be used to beautify my garden and eggs - but thats it. 

 

You get to have your own garden, in which the land are bought by using tickets of real estates. Seeds you obtain from completing dungeons can be planted here, but so far I still do not know the purpose of the growth besides making the garden look more pleasant to the eyes. You can dig for stuff in your garden and even hatch an egg here (I hatched a chicken but it ran away, IKR. Such randomness). You can give LOVE to your flowers and chickens once per day even if they are at a baby stage, and the dialogue is very funny to look at. "Some Seed Laughed", "Egg is Pleased" etc.

You get to pay to go into the Pub every day for free daily items (source of rule lottery ticket for your rules and free character tickets and other stuff). The more money you use to go into the Pub, the more the Pub earns - and that allows it to upgrade the spaces for allies that you can see inside the Pub and other (still unknown to me) stuff.

Gameplay wise, I give this game a 7/10 because it is that unique. I know of many games by Windbell, and the art is very cute and entertaining. The UI or User Interface to the game is also very friendly to first time players, if you know what you are doing. Although the translation done on the game is only so, so - it is basically still understandable and adds to the laughs. The ads are also pleasant - the game does not play video ads without permission like some other apps and leave advertisments in small windows that do not disrupt gameplay.

Looking forward to more from Windbell, Garden Diary has indeed captured my heart.

XOXO

KiiKii the Yu

Resignation, Retirement and Breaks

Recently, my dad told us that he was tired of working and wanted a break - and to work as close to home as possible. No one was surprised, really. This was following the recent cases of horrifying aircraft incidents such as hijacks and attacks, and my dad just so happens to be a pilot. Not for an airplane, but for a helicopter (but who cares, its still an aircraft). Inclusive of the fact that Ebola had just started to get into his country of work - his retirement plan is now becoming seemingly a necessity instead of a want.

As the main breadwinner in the family, he works hard to fund all four of his children's education - to a tertiary level, which is no walk in the park; so him wanting to take a well deserved rest is no biggie, really.

I, as the youngest in the family is still pursuing my bachelor studies (third year as in 2014) - with a simple 20% scholarship as there was no better scholarship scheme that fitted my background (Yeah, I am an honest guy that wont dare input false information for a scholarship), and this current scholarship is a bit of a foul because a CGPA of 3.75 is to be maintained for the scholarship to carry forward, and it is just 20% of the fees. I know of better scholarship schemes that offer a full payment of school fees with just a constant maintenance of a 2.00 CGPA, and to think I couldnt apply for it because of my background status (like income, etc) that I didn't dare to forge. 

Maintaining a CGPA of 3.75 sounds easy, but it actually isn't. The GPA corresponding to the marks are as such:

80% - 4.00 GPA

75 - 80% - 3.67 GPA

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- which means that I am only allowed to obtain at least more than 80% for all four subjects and have only a few chances to pull the continuous CGPA up if I slip on a few subjects, but not all. The truth is hard and painful, like running into a brick wall. And there is nothing much I can do, except complain and pray that a better scholarship scheme will run headfirst into me; and that chance is also getting slimmer. No one in the right mind will offer a scholarship scheme to a third year student, finishing in another year. 

This painful fact is why I try so hard in my studies, though many people might see me as lifeless and booky. I have put aside a few best friends to study, and I regret that deeply even though I don't feel as if I have a choice. I wanted to apologize to them; but I feel as if I will be that little brat that apologizes and then does the same mistake again - and again. 20% is not much, but if it can lessen my dad's burden then it means a lot to me. 

I still fear of the day when this scholarship crumbles, even though I try so damn hard to redeem myself in it's grace. I fear of the day my dad will have to work harder even though he wants a break - just to pay for my studies, just to fund something that should no longer hold any more importance to him.

My dad had been trying to offer me the best - he wants me to study overseas, live overseas, experience the life overseas. I tried nicely everytime to offer a counter-excuse to refuse. Why? Because I know he will have to work harder. I know that he will have to suffer in order for me to obtain a meager half-baked experience overseas. Even though the offer seems too good to be true, I would rather work hard with my own sweat and blood to obtain what I want. I know of a few people that have practically begged their family for a chance to be overseas - I do not think of them as spoiled, there might be a pinch of envy in one corner of my heart; but I am happy for them.

I have just started my internship programme last month, on the 14th of June 2014. Working as a trial for not even a year, or thirty years up like my dad - I have already felt depressed and tired. I had practically not much time to do what I loved and wanted, and that was enough to give me suicidal thoughts. Thankfully, my brain had more control over my heart. I am grateful to my brain for self-inducing stupidly optimistic reasons for me to live on - and so I did. This is one of the reasons I felt that my dad should be able to rest if he wants to rest - putting aside the fact that many hap-hazardous incidents are threatening his life.

After the announcement this morning, I went online and looked for reasons that people may retire and what might happen to them; and I became more understanding towards my dad's plea for a break. If you want to read more about it, you can read it here: http://www.financialsamurai.com/the-dark-side-of-early-retirement-risks-dangers/

I just hope that my dad will not feel like he is useless in society's eyes after he takes a break - and if he continues looking for a new job in his homecountry, then I hope that he gets a relaxing job.

XOXO

KiiKii the Yu

 

Similarities between PKO and KDS

I have been wondering for a very long time, but it seems that no one else noticed that there is a very distinct similarity of the music in PKO (Pirate King Online)/ TOP(Tales of Pirates) with the movie Kiki's Delivery Service - Studio Ghibli.

There are two instances of this that I have spotted:

1 ) Similarity between Argent City music (PKO/TOP) and Umi no Mieru Machi (City with an Ocean View, Kiki's Delivery Service).

2) Similarity between PKO/TOP Title Screen Music and On a Clear Day (Kiki's Delivery Service)

So I was just wondering if they cooperated together, since it was really (apparently) quite obvious :>

If they did, its wonderful. If they didn't, then it would be a disaster since Studio Ghibli is really aggresive when it comes to copyrights :S

Just in Case :O

At work today (internship) I was scavenging through circuit boards to find useful stuff so that my friend can find something to test the Arduino Board out with. While looking at the board, some white stuff stuck to my hand, and I realized that it was from some gluish chemical used to stick wire casings to the insides of inductors. It smelt awful, really chemicalish (is that even a word) and I am very sure it might have been toxic and harmful to humans. However, I can't keep the thought of testing to see if it really is poisonous out of my mind. Like I was really tempted to stick the finger that got hold of the white substance in my mouth and see if I am still okay for the rest of the day - but I did not. Right after that train of thought have passed, I was again visited by another similarly directed thought. Just in case I accidentally took in some of the toxic and got into a horrible state, I might as well take it first so that I won't have to worry so much about getting into this "horrible" state in the future.

This might seem really complicated, so I thought of a few examples (not true) to explain this conflicted feeling.

Example 1

So I needn't worry about getting my leg injured later on, I purposely injure it first so that I can feel the relief of needing to worry.

Example 2

So I needn't worry about accidentally breaking the glass decoration on the fireplace later on, I break it first on purpose.

Example 3

So I needn't worry about the rain dousing the laundry, I wet them with the hose.

Example 4

So I needn't worry about my wallet being stolen or lost, I throw them away first.

And other stuff like that. I know it might seem illogical and even insensible to practice, but some time your brain just feels like fucking around - resulting in one of the many choices to make becoming corrupted and inpractical.

Sometimes, it might be as simple as - I might get in trouble with the teacher sooner or later, so to avoid that I will create trouble now and get pass that stage. 

Unbelievable?

Believe it.

Weed your yard, they won't grow, I promise.

Bullsh*t.

The story goes like this. I was promised to never need to lay my hands on wild weed again if I helped to clear out weed from the time my house was still unbuilt. After all these time, house built and now occupied - here they are again, growing like nobody's business and I have to spend my peaceful weekends outside; weeding when I have more fun things to do like lying down on the floor doing absolutely nothing while looking at the pale serene ceiling.

On a side note, I have gotten an internship offer which I have been doing for four weeks and counting. I am not a very excellent worker I can notice. Still striving to improve - and yeah; grades dont f*cking matter because grades dont help you be good at practical stuff you have to actually do with your arms and legs.  The working hours are 0930 to 1830, which I think is pretty flexible even though I mostly leave the workplace at 1900. Instead of working every Saturday for half a day, I work full time every alternate Saturdays instead.

Free time? Too bad I am an engineer to be. 

However, I do have free time on Sunday which I HAVE TO FILL UP BY WEEDING THE GARDEN WTF SUCH BOREDOME and so you could say things are going pretty well.

I did read up on how to SUCCESSFULLY remove weeds via "REMOVING WEEDS FOR IDIOTS" and what goes on is that we should mow our grass at a fixed height instead of *insert random height from ground* so it prevents sunlight from reaching those pesky weed that no one loves. (YES, WILD WEED. NO ONE LIKES YOU. EAT A D*CK).

Unfortunately an adjustable height lawnmower is too expensive to invest in (I would rather invest in other stuff like FOOD EHEHEH), and so I have the grass-cutter that those workers use to cut the grass outside. Quite useless though, it runs on motor oil and those plastic blades have to be manually replaced every 5 d*mn minutes while mowing the grass :|.

A good solution I guess would be planting bamboo long term, since the bamboo is like gargantuan grass plants, and they will totally absorb all the nutrients from and around the soil where they are stationed (by yours truly me :V if I get to do that) and cause weaker weeds and normal grass to WITHER AND DIE. That means we will have:

1) Pretty Bamboo around the house

2) No Pesky Wild Weeds

3) No Grass (Saves time to mow them)

WIN WIN!

But seems like my dad loves grass; just dislikes wild weed. Guess there is no escape from my weekly chores that prevent me from enjoying the scenery of my ceiling.

Wild weed is a b*tch.

Killing that Damn :< Bug

Killing a bug may be nothing to most people, but to me - I am killing a living thing that is capable of thinking. No thinking as all humans do, but just thinking; with due sense of having a brain. They have the ability to feel pain, like humans do. They have a need to survive, as most humans do.

So earlier today, I was helping my dad with chores outside in the garden. During one of the more menial jobs (relocating garden tiles, yes those heavy cement blocks that sit in your garden so you can use them as stepping stones), a black ant bit my dad's palm. (It should be honorable to mention that he was bitten twice by two different black ants). As he was well versed in the "arts" of being stung (he was stung by various insects before), he uttered that the bite was comparable to the sting of a honeybee. That said, he ordered me to fetch the "neccesary equipments" so that he can sentence the whole colony to death. You could imagine the look on my face. 

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I am that kind of person that will use the power of the kaze 風 (wind) generated from my kuchi 口(mouth) : 風口 or 吹き (blowing winds) to blow a mosquito away when she drinks her fill of my blood instead of smacking it into oblivion, the type that will say sorry to insects that he accidentally steps on - and sentencing a colony to death because of the wrong of a single (or two) worker?

Well some might argue that it is the instincts of the colony to protect the hive, because it is an order by pheromone of the queen. Isn't that more of a reason that these bugs are innocent? If these bugs appear to be humans, you dont see higher ups sentencing a whole village to death because the occupants want to protect their own territory (or maybe they do, but that's in the past).  

Anyways I was thinking that maybe there was no other methods, so I brought the killing machine (Ridsect) and my dad performed the purging of the colony. As much as I try to be a kind person that don't kill uneccesarily, I was reminded again and again by the devil sitting on my right shoulder that I would be a hypocrite, then. I am not a strict herbivore or a vegan. 

My dad reasoned that if the colony was not purged - and instead let to grow; then it would be disastrous for us when we will do even more menial jobs in the future.

Sounds pretty legit, but I couldnt help feeling that I have shed off some humanity. 

After all, there is no right or wrong answer in a universe where reasonings are undefined.

Ryūgajō Nanana no Maizōkin (龍ヶ嬢七々々の埋蔵金)

I stumbled across this anime a few months ago, watched it since episode 1 and still watching. 

I have watched LOTS of anime, and well - a guy moves into an apartment and rent is cheap. Turns out, it was because there was a female earthbound spirit living in the sitting room of the apartment room he rented. (She was murdered and cannot pass on until she finds out who killed her.)

(Credits to RandomMc.net)

She is a HUGE glutton when it comes to pudding, but she does not get fat (Not sure if its because she's already dead or because its an anime :| ). Yes, she can physically touch things, but cannot escape the room because shes earthbound (more like roombound).

Turns out, she is Nanana, a girl that saved the island by going on an adventure and obtained lots of treasures with magical powers. Prior to her murder, she hid the treasures by scattering them around different troves. Each trove has their own traps that require not only the skills and wits; but also great intelligence. These treasures are then known as the buried treasures of Ryugajou Nanana. She is now encouraging everyone to look for the treasures for their own satisfaction, but normal people usually are not able to gain and obtain them for their own benefit due to each trove containing numerous number of dangerous life threatening threats.

However, in one school on the island - there exists an Adventure Club dedicated just to locate and obtain the treasures. With two new members: A strong-willed idiot and a genius (yeah, her name literally translates to "Genius"), the members of the club now has a better chance to obtain these treasures? 

(Credits to RandomMc.net)

This anime is indeed one that grows on you with time :)

WAIT, DID I MENTION THAT THERE IS A CROSSDRESSING MAID?

Blah. Anyways..

ONWARD, to find the next buried treasure!

Most Embarassing Thing EVA

Well, just bought a new phone this new year. Like all dream phones, theres a front camera so I ended up doing what most people do with phones with front cameras. Selfies. And more selfies. But I selfie-d less. I didnt take a picture of my grace like everywhere and anywhere at any time. Just when I felt like it I would take out my phone, go to the camera and SNAP. And theres my face waiting to be posted on yours sincerely FACEBOOK. But NO. As much as I would love to share a selfie (with my face of course, not my p*nis.) with everyone on FACEBOOK, I am not an attention seeker so I would rather keep my selfies to myself and laugh at them when I am feeling down or what.

But with a good phone comes great responsibilities. For example, imagine a time when your groupmates need to take a picture of an experimental result they just found. Yeah engineers have to take pictures to include in reports ALL the time. And the thing is that they dont have super good phones with them and even if they did take a picture it would come out blur and looking like censored pornography. So its okay. Take a picture. SNAP.

And then your brain goes "lets show it to them to see if they're satisfied with the shot".

And you show them the pictures one by one. Next.


Next.



Next.



AND LO AND BEHOLD ITS RIGHT THERE THE SELFIE YOU TOOK LAST NIGHT

And they pretend to look somewhere else and you're like oh .I .No .I .mean. what.

Though I imagine its not as awkward as when you take a naked shot of yourself. Thankfully I dont do kinky stuff.

Anyways blah.

Might as well share it somewhere no one reads and hope I will be famous in death.

Oh yes I am a ninja.

Serenity Again

So I was cleaning up my files when I had the time, and one corner of the computer screen caught my eye. It was NOVELTY, a Visual Novel maker. I remembered a novel I wrote and voiced over, Serenity and I clicked to play it. How long has it been already, two years?

I was a little sceptical about the game I created myself, I don't even remember the choices you need to get to the true ending, so I just CTRL-ed through to find the true ending. At some points though I stopped to listen to the wonderful music, and at some points I felt stupid for writing such an ending. I would gladly use a time machine to slap my past self, lol.

Some of these endings really hit me emotionally, as part of the story was based on my emotions at that time. My needs and wants and what was going on in my life + how I felt. So I decided then, not to delete the file. a 100 Mb, but for keepsake why not?

The download link is probably in one of my old blog posts. It's a 4Shared link, so I dont expect anyone to register just to download it, hah.