Bellflowers and Palamecia Roots

Finishing this year (2013) and also my fourth semester in my Degree, I have to say that it was... Mortifying. Agonizing. Dreadful. MAD, yes. It was totally mad. It drove me up the wall several times, having me feel like a strangled fowl. It doesn't take a genius to see that I have been doing horribly in the finals of the semester. Sure, the semester was good and all - the assignments and project were dreadfully tiring but it was doable. What bothered me was the finals. Yeah, the finals. 

So anyway forgive the randomly allocated post name. It was just something I thought up like three to four seconds before I started typing these long meaningless paragraphs of words.

Year 2013 wasn't the best year I have seen, but certainly it couldn't be the worst I will see. I have caught on news about many people that I know by name - and a number of them has passed on, on this year itself. I have no idea if I only became more aware of things happening around myself recently, or there really seem to be some force at work. I would choose the latter though, I am usually ignorant during the previous span of my life.

I got to meet many interesting people, and also made some enemies out of people. I am sure that with my double-edged sword personality - carefree at times and really dead on serious instantly at another would annoy people and get them to rethink their friendship, but yeah. I have been trying really hard to stick to one, but it is hard because this has sort of become a habitual instinct. I would even like to apologize, but by the time I finish we would all be old enough to crumble at any second.. So I would leave it at that.

I have abandoned a lot of my friends because of my own pride and attitude. First, I want to be the top in class. And then I feel like it would not be bad to be at the bottom. At times I feel lonely, and then I am not. I at times really miss someone. And then I dont. I sometimes make light of my friends and spend my time completing my seemingly endless assignments and projects - even though I really could do them earlier, I procastinate. And then when I am invited out by my friends - I have to reject them.

As I got busier, I suddenly have to help organize a large-scale event in February next year (2014). As it coincided with me needing to find a new scholarship to substain my education and also helping out to move to a new house, I was busier than ever - and also stressed out. It was not the fault of the club's. It was mine and mine alone - and this all stems from my inability to say "NO" and also my incapability of seeing myself happy alone while everyone else around me have to suffer. And this leads to me having to again reject invitations to outings from my friends.

If my friend, in any way gets hold of this post and read them - I want to apologize from the bottom of my heart. I am really sorry. 

Also, I am sorry to make my family worry so much about me. I am this type of person that won't ever forgive himself for mistakes done - and so during exams I would be ripping my hair out stressing myself and secluding myself from the outside world. 

What I want to approach in year 2014 is to be a more carefree person, and spend 50% of my time having fun with my family and friends and strictly 50% on work and education. I hope not to have my work and education taking over my life and making everyone worry about me, and having me worry about myself - I want to learn to love myself and give myself a treat. And with that I have quitted the Debater's Club. I sure won't want to organize any more events and become the President - although it is a good thing - it is just not worth my already limited time. 

I want to learn not to give a fuck about other people's wants except if they are family, or if they are really important. I don't want to be taken for granted, and so I don't want to care. 

I want to be able to confidently say "NO" if I am really unhappy and voice out when I am in disagreement, because I found out that is where my problems stem from.

I want to be a person that is there for my family and friends, and most importantly be there for myself.

Most of all, I want to be a person I can be proud of - not a person others want to be.

Sunshine, Festivals and the Lion [DAY 3]

Day 3 was an amazingly delicious day. I woke up to sunshine through the windows, and probably also the cold temperature as I entered the washroom to wash myself right up. Even though I was tempted not to bath I bathed, and then washed my face for the day. The water was freezing cold.

My sister brought us out to a Chinese Restaurant, called Hao Ge. As I entered the restaurant, the scent of food was already tickling my brain through my nose. It made my stomach growl, and we couldn't wait to order. We ordered chicken legs, meat and also Pai Kut Ong (Some bone king, didn't know how to spell it :x). We also had Dim Sum and the most delicious Egg Tart I ever laid my tongue on. The portion was okay, and the food was so tasty we literally almost licked the plates scott free.

Food from Hao Ge. Look at the Dim Sum :P Yum Yum

After that, we went for an outing with my other Siblings. We walked along the Brisbane River and I took a picture of the city. It was a day full of sunshine, and the sun was scorching hot, but there was a constant breeze of cool air, so it was standable. Nearby, there was a chocolate factory themed cafe called Max Brenners. The menu consisted of chocolate, chocolate and even more chocolate. This sure would alter my weight a little but it was worth it. Chocolate dips, Chocolate waffles, Chocolate ice cream, this new concept could be applied for Breakfast and Lunch, and we had the sweetest lunch ever.

It was a very long day. We took a walk around Brisbane Square, and saw the old bank. It looked really classy, as if we are strutting down the streets of London, but yeah; back to reality. Its Brisbane and its the 21st century right now :3 We also went to the lookout at Mount Cootha. And guess what? I saw Park Tae Hwan, the famous Korean Swimmer! He was with another lady, though. Didn't want to disturb them so I just fled to the sidelines and watched.

Yeah as you can see, my fingers seem really reluctant to type essays about my amazing experience. I will just caption the pictures I have taken and end this on an amazing note.

CHOCOLATE

Brisbane City, and Brisbane River. Also, candid of Su Min. (That I didn't notice until after I checked the photos back in Malaysia)

The Max Brenner's Chocolate Love Story. tl;dr

Chocolate Waffles, Ice Cream, sweet snacks to dip into chocolate dippings. Both Milk and Dark Chocolate. Full of Chocolaty goodness :3

Brisbane Square! Sorry random people dragged into my inconvenient phototaking timing skills.

Planetarium. Closed when we arrived though. :(

Mount Cootha lookout.

WHOO!! tl;dr

Brisbane's map? :x I really have no idea what this is.

Delicious vegetarian food, there were other dishes too during dinner that day; but I only took pictures of this San Choi Pau :(

Sunshine, Festivals and the Lion [Day 2]

We slept really soundly the first night. When we woke up that morning, it was daybreak. Briskly packing our stuff, we took one last glance at the hotel room and bid the place goodbye. We had a quick breakfast at a local eatery and called a cab to bring us to Changi. We checked into Emirates, which personally is the best flight I had ever been on in my life. Everybody were dressed so formally, men in formal attire fit with matching ties, and women with red headpieces that make them look damn elegant. It was like a flight fit for a paradise on earth.

The flight was seven hours long, so I popped a motion sickness pill half an hour before the flight. Seven hours may be a long stretch of time, but for me it wasnt. It wasnt enough, Emirates had too much things to do that you easily lose track of time. There was a touchscreen device located in front of you, which you can use to watch movies all over the world of different languages and also subtitles, and also various songs. Nolstagic songs I have long not heard of. These include

• Love Story wa Totsuzen Ni
• Kaze ni Naru - The Cat Returns
• Tonari no Totoro - My Neighbour, Totoro
• Doraemon no Uta - Doraemon
• Moonlight Densetsu - Sailormoon

And of course, exciting series like Family Guy and TBBT (The Big Bang Theory). It was the best flight experience every. The stewards/stewardesses were polite and efficient with their job. The flight had blankets and pillows you can use to make yourself more comfortable. The flight was amazing on many levels that cannot be explained with mere words of my standard. It was stable, the take off and landing were amazing that you won't fill a tad dizzy or nauseous. It was great. Five stars, but if I could give more I would chip in extra stars.

The Emirates Flight. Best flight ever. Adios to the crew members that gave us the best treatment in the world!

Watching TBBT (The Big Bang Theory) in the aircraft :D Knock Knock Knock, Penny?

We reached Brisbane at about 9:00 p.m. at night. Driving back to my eldest sister's place takes about half an hour, so when we reached we talked for a while. My second sister, my brother; Young and his girlfriend; Su Min were also there, My second sister was helping them pack my brother's stuff. He flew in from Adelaide to attend my sister's wedding - and so he packed his stuff that used to be in my eldest sister's house because he used to live there in the past.

We slept early that day, because we had a lot to see the next day. That marks the end of day 2 :P

Sunshine, Festivals and the Lion [DAY 1]

So yeah; on the 22nd of August 2013, I flew to Singapore and Australia. I had motion sickness (A trait passed down from my maternal side) - so I had to gulp down a pill to qwell the sickness before the flight. About an hour and a half long, the Air Asia flight was okay. I noticed the stewardess' were all wearing jeans, a modern concept maybe?

We stayed in Beach Hotel along Beach Road. A good location indeed, after the limousine driver dropped us there from Changi Airport, the rooms needed preparation - so we had a short stroll, and there was a lot of eateries. Japanese Cuisines, Korean Barbeques, Western Grills, Chinese Food; name it and it will be there. Since it was a location that was technically in the middle of the city, there were people from all walks of life. Students, office workers, the elderly and even high school children everywhere.

The night life over there was awesome, you can see students doing their assignments in cafes, having blasts with their friends or walking happily in a gang. The parks were also a sight to behold. Lovebirds can be seen at many a place and a time, holding hands and cuddling under the moonlight. The eateries were the best. There were rarely enough space for people to eat, so the eateries were always crowded and people had to queue up outside and wait for their turn. The food were quite similar to Malaysia, with a slightly little difference in taste.

Nasi Lemak at a local eatery. Spicy, but the delicious type of spicy.

When the budget hotel was ready, we unpacked and rested a while. It seemed like a long day, but we weren't ready to sleep just yet. We would only be here for less than a day, so why not sight-walk as far as our legs can bring us? Mum's legs were easily exhausted, so she told us that she would stay in the hotel to Watch some TV and also play some games (Candy Crush especially). Anyway, we saved some money by not calling the taxi drivers and we walked through half of the city. The weather was cloudy, it could rain any time - but it never did. The spiral bridge was beautiful, the patterns were surreal. As I walked over the bridge, I felt intensely excited. I was curious, though; as to what those symbols on the ground meant.

The Casino Hotel and also the Arts Museum. Pretty exotic design, huh? :)

No idea what this is called, but I think its the floating stadium. Aren't those colors beautiful?

Water collection tanks, decorated like an upside down umbrella tree. There was a floating garden like this, but I didn't get to go on it :(

In one of the malls. Previously, there was a canal for modern yachts to pass through. Elegant design!

When we got back home, we went out again for dinner. We ate at a chicken rice shop; and yes, we had chicken rice and several dishes to go with them. The food was tasty! We followed up with dessert just a stone's throw away. It was a wonderful day for us and even more blissful a day for our stomachs.

Ais Kacang Singapore. Delicious!

My mum was telling us that she heard someone knocking on her door, but as she peeked through the keyhole she saw no one. This incident only occured when my dad and I isn't in the hotel room. It was certainly strange, but not as mysterious considering that it was still the 7th month then. Besides that, it might be just matters of the mind, or she was worrying too much.

Putting incidents aside, it was a wonderful day in Singapore. I will certainly come back again to this wonderful country.

The Closest Experience to Death

It was a day I would never forget, yet do not want to remember. It stems from my body being naturally slightly weaker for as long as I can remember than the original human being. Many in this world share the same bodily conditions like mine, and it is considered very normal because most people including the victims themselves will never notice it most of the time; even at their deathbed.

I know that I would get sick just by being under the sun for long hours like most people would. However, I had to abide by concurring situations just for the sake to please everybody and maintain a peaceful household. I was living under the roof provided by two people that I love, but the complications occur because these two beloved people of mine are living under two completely different paradigms, two parallel lines that will never meet. No, wait; its two lines that have met once, but have since strayed far from each other never to meet again. These lines are straight, mind you. Under their own paradigm, they have a simple set of rules set by themselves, to themselves, for themselves and subsequently for everyone around them. The rules that intersect include strict propagandas such as "I am always right", "I will never listen to others" and also "If I can do it, everyone can".

Of course, on the other side of paradigm number 1 includes "Friends above all else including family" and on the other side of number 2 include "Sentient Beings  Animals Dogs prioritization". These two loved ones would argue at least once every day based on their paradigm, and both sides on the losing grounds mean that they would take their frustration based on the only thing close enough for them to lay their hands on.

Loved person number 1 has his hobby for tending plants, but also for the same reason the utter destruction of weeds. We all understand that this is a form of gardening that is native to him, but at the same time a huge waste of time. Also, this hobby of his include picking up all the stones you can find in the yard, putting them into plastic bags and throwing them away. Based on this hobby of his, he would implicitly force me to do it together with him everyday. No rests. Every day. Yes, you read that right. EVERY DAY YO. Unless its raining, weather please be nice to me. Departing at around four in the afternoon, we would leave only when the sky is half an hour to darkness. These two loved ones arrived to a consensus though, that we would bring our pets there as well. Although we had to bring the gardening tools in one hand, it didn't matter much as we have one hand free to grab on to our pets.

Doing this "hobby" with my dad proved really tiring when done every day. Soon, my body grew even weaker and I started to get dizzy spurts. I would feel really dizzy sometimes and have a fainting feeling at times. One day,  I told him. "Can I not go today? I feel very tired". His reply was in a sarcastic tone. "I will feel very lonely...", "Sigh", "its up to you... I won't force you..", "You're so useless..?". Yeah, a bit of guilty attacks. Guilt strikes me, but I know my limits. So I told him I will go. And I went.

Another time, when I felt as tired as ever I told him the same thing again. He went on with the same reply like previously, but this time I was determined that I was going to get sick. He disappeared for around fifteen minutes, and came back to demand my attendance. So I had to abide.

It was a lovely Friday morning what the incident occured. 16th of August, when I was 20. Yeah; I still am, right now - but just putting it in a past-present perspective. I am going to be outright honest and tell you all that at the time it occured, I was playing League of Legends as Janna. Strong winds unleash yo! Anyway, halfway into the game beloved person number 2 entered the room after being pestered by beloved person number 1 about the luggage we need to finalize based on our trip the following week. A trip sounds fun, but the pre and pro consequences was and will be very hectic.

I began to feel a sharp throbbing pain in my upper left chest. Followed by dizziness and also nausea. I rushed to the toilet, and sure enough I threw up half of the morning's breakfast in two trips back and forth from the toilet and League of Legends. The third time, I was already so sure I cannot continue like this so I ended the game first. By the fourth time, I kinda thought I ran out of things to throw up because all that came out was dark colored grime. It didn't really help that your two loved ones are doing their own things, one of them upstairs watching some DVD or chatting with his friend and the other playing Candy Crush.

I bet for them, things got really serious when I told them I felt really tired and wanted to sleep (which I really did want to; like just lay my head on the toilet bowl and sleep there cause I was throwing up to the point of being so weak and sitting down on the toilet floor, being a mess and sweating all over with my nose running.) It was a heatstroke, and even with my aunt being there to help me get rid of the heat, it took me until about eight at night to feel tad better. And beloved person number 1 went out to carry out his hobby when I was on the closest verge towards dying.

So yeah. To avoid being like me, sleep well and have a good diet. Dont take too much spicy food and overwork yourself just to please others. Your body is a shrine and your mind is a temple. Take good care of it and learn to say no and insist on disagreeing even if you are afraid to hurt a loved one. Chances are, your loved one may never see you again.


Heatstroke

THINGS NOT TO DO WHEN HAVING A HEATSTROKE

Sleep
- Most people may not know this, but sleeping during a heatstroke will cause you to wake up in the afterworld. You can rest, but do it with your eyes open.

Bath
- You can sprinkle yourself with water at room temperature, but never do so with cold water or even bath during a heatstroke.

Take Shots
- If you go to a doctor, do not attempt to take injections. Taking injections will result in imminent death.

Lying down on the floor
- Yeah, you will die.

Davichi (다비치) - Don't You Know (모르시나요)

Courtesy of JustJangHyuk1220

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Lyrics

English

Since the cold wind blows

Tears are shed at thoughts of you

The day you left without saying farewell

You only left me with longing

In my heart that longs and cries for you

You visit it today thousands of times

Even when I shout out your name at the top of my lungs

You don’t give me any sort of answer

Why don’t you know me who is waiting?

Whatever season it is, I am waiting

I just silently cry, I’m sad, I’m sad

Come back my dear

Don’t you know?

As the tears endlessly flow

There are no days when my sad eyes are dry

Why is my farewell so heart aching like this?

Why am I the only one whose heart is aching like this?

Why don’t you know me who is waiting?

Whatever season it is, I am waiting

I just silently cry, I’m sad, I’m sad

Come back my dear

Don’t you know?

Since the cold wind blows

Tears are shed at thoughts of you

The day you left without saying farewell

You only left me with longing

 

Courtesy of wiwee-27 and melOn

 

Hangul

 

찬바람 불어오니 

Cham-ba-ram bul-eo-o-ni

 

그대 생각에 눈물짓네

Geu-dae saeng-gag-heoi  nun-mul-jitt-neoi

인사 없이 떠나시던 날 

In-sa eobs-i ddeo-na-si-deon nal

 

그리움만 남겨놓고

Geu-li-um-man nam-gyeo-noht-go

그리워 글썽이는 내 가슴 속에

Geu-li-ueo geul-sseong-i-neun nae ga-seum sog-heoi

 

오늘 그대 수천 번은 다녀가시네

O-neul geu-dae su-cheon beon-eun da-nyeo-ga-si-neoi

 

나는 목놓아 그대를 소리쳐 불러도

Na-neun mug-nuh-a geu-dae-leul so-li-chyeo bul-leo-do

그댄 아무런 대답조차 하지 않네요

Geu-daen a-mu-leon dae-dab-jo-cha ha-ji anh-neoi-yo

기다리는 나를 왜 모르시나요

Gi-da-li-neun na-leul oae mo-leu-si-na-yo

 

어느 계절마다 난 기다리는데

Eo-neu gyeoi-jeol ma-da nan gi-da-li-neun-deoi

 

그저 소리없이 울수록 서러워 서러워

Geu-jeo so-li-eobs-i ul-su-log seo-leo-ueo seo-leo-ueo

 

돌아와요 나의 그대여

Dol-a-oa-yo na-eui geu-dae-yeo

 

모르시나요

Mo-leu-si-na-yo

눈물은 한없이 쏟아져 내려도

Nun-mul-eun han-eobt-i ssod-a-jyeo nae-lyeo-do

 

슬픈 나의 두 눈은 끝내 마를 날 없네

 Seul-peun na-eui du nun-eun ggeut-nae ma-leul nal eobt-neoi

 

나의 이별은 이토록 왜 가슴 시린지

Na-eui i-byeol-eun i-to-log oae ga-seum si-rin-ji

 

왜 나 혼자만 이렇게 또 가슴 아픈지

Oae na hon-ja-man ileoh-geoi ddo ga-seum a-peun-ji

기다리는 나를 왜 모르시나요

Gi-da-ri-neun na-leul oae mo-leu-si-na-yo

 

어느 계절마다 난 기다리는데

Eo-neu gyeoi-jeol-ma-da nan-gi-da-ri-neun-deoi

 

그저 소리없이 울수록 서러워 서러워

Geu-jeo so-li-eobs-i ul-su-rog seo-leo-ueo seo-leo-ueo

 

돌아와요 나의 그대여 

Dol-a-oa-yo na-eui geu-dae-yeo

 

모르시나요

Mo-leu-si-na-yo

찬바람 불어오니 

Chan-ba-ram bul-eo-o-ni

 

그대 생각에 눈물짓네

 Geu-dae saeng-gag-eoi nun-mul-jit-neoi

 

인사 없이 떠나시던 날 

In-sa eobs-i ddeo-na-si-deon nal

 

그리움만 두고가네

Geu-li-um-man du-go-ga-neoi

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Yeah, I romanized it myself. I like my own way of romanization, cause it sounds closer to the original. Putting aside the L/R differences that is :(

So I stumbled upon this song a few days ago, and it got stuck in my head. Oops, I didnt know bold was on. Okay anyway, it was stuck in my head- and I instantly recognized Lee Haeri's voice from Davichi \o/ and so I got addicted, searched for more and more videos. Its from Iris 2, some police drama. Looks interesting- but I wont dwell on dramas, especially series drama. My sister might like it :)

Anyway, my eyes were teary when I reached the chorus T_T I have nothing to relate the lyrics to in my life, but the song was so sad.

HeRO \o/ Part 5

Training with Ian.

Taking rough sea salt to this aunty.

2 children protected by Snowysnow

SWOWYSNOW THE SNOWMAN

Creating the perfect instrument?

 

At last! a bard.

Was training with Ian until we both got to Job Level 40. With nothing to Lose (since I dont really like ensemble skills) I went for a job change. Going to Comodo was easy, I just needed to pay the Kafra in Morroc 1.8k z (easily earned). Talking to the wandering bard with an aloe flower in my hand, he told me I was skillful and that aloe leaflets can also be used to heal all kinds of illness. Baby I know, I have aloe vera plants in my garden.

Anyway, he said being a bard is no joke, and I need to befriend someone from Lutie, a christmas village and bring back some gifts. Since I am this antisocial bastard, I prefer talking to NPCs instead. Yeah this snowman was crying because he was alone, and that he has no legs to move to visit other people. This damn hipster, forever alone before it was cool.

Anyway, after some talking we learned that there was an alchemist named Phillip or Philz or something like that, walked into a village that was 80% destroyed, seeing some near to death villagers begging him to release them from his suffering but he ignored them and continued walking, barging into people's homes breaking jars for hearts, rupees and fairies. Anyway the main story is that at one point in the ruined village, he saw two children, still alive and hiding behind a snowman. He was amazed and touched that this snowman saved two children so he used his magic to transport the snowman somewhere where he can be preserved forever.

And that was how Snowysnow was born! in the village of Lutie. He seems to have a very good reputation, giving free candy from a Doraemon 4 Dimension santa sack that can be used to produce an unlimited amount of what the person desires. And he never gives anyone anything else except candy and also rough sea salt to make pickles for Mr Hairy that was old enough to know the history of the village. After talking to everyone and finding out Snowysnow's past, Snowysnow was glad that I took interest and promised to be my friend, giving me 2 pieces of cake. I bought the cake back to the wandering bard, and together with 60 barren trunk I demanded he made an instrument for me. So I became a bard, and got a mandolin. Good enough.

P.S : Snowysnow wasn't the only talking snowman, theres one more talking snowman in Lutie's church. :\

HeRO \o/ Part 4

Clouds!? ONLY CLOUDS!?

So I went aboard the airship to try to go to Einbroch, but it seems that the journey only traverses from Izlude to Juno, Juno to Rachel and back to Izlude. So it was okay, I didn't really need to go to Einbroch anyways :( .

Ain't gonna spend any money on that.

So there are many fun things to do in the Airship, many exciting views. Well, of course. I paid 1.5k zenies for this! It better be pretty. So as I was saying, its pretty cosy inside the cabin. I was afraid some unknown flying species would attack outside so I ran inside to keep myself safe. Look at them gambling !_! and that lady seems to have her dress over the table huh ;)

SKULLL

Last but not least, Byalan Island. Northeast of Izlude, the sailors will bring you there for a cheap price of 150z. Pretty worth it. The island itself is pretty amazing, If you walk to where those eyes are on the minimap, there are tombstones there. Pretty creepy, considering you are just travelling to a dungeon where King Neptune lives at the very bottom.

HeRO \o/ Part 3

 The continuation of the journey. I am now in Lutie, Toy Factory. Lutie can only be accessed if you go to Al De Baran and talk to Santa (the big fat guy with white facial hair in red attire) at the north east corner of the map. (Not North West ;) please ignore any reference to a creative name given by celebrity parents) There, he takes you to Lutie for free.

At first I was afraid I had to walk to Al De Baran from Prontera though, there were many stem worms that are aggro and has over 6k HP, so it would be a nightmare.

Anyway, its all fun and games in Toy Factory, where lots of pretty mazes exist.... UNTIL MVPS begin to appear. The only MVP I was able to put up with was Mastering, with 2k HP. The rest were crazy and I had to avoid them.

Arch Angeling and its pawns.

Manmade Maze :P

HeRO \o/ Part 2

ZAP ZAP

 So this is my magician. Just made it in case I got bored with my archer. The quest was really taxing though, they wanted me to create a solution and I had to run around finding the ingredients to create them. Yeah, there was a bookcase somewhere inside the magician's guild, and to make Solution 4 I had to buy Morroc's Solution from Pocahontas for 50z. The rest was pretty easy though, got them from beginner's island.

BURN BURN

I got to explore really amazing places I really havent got the chance to go to when I was playing in other private servers. Because the rates are quite low, I had to actually move around the map to find monsters I had to ZAP ZAP. But in this case its BURN BURN, cause I am using firebolt.

So back to my archer. I was training a bit with Ian just earlier, he was using his swordsman. Yeap, swordsmen are good tanks, they have a very big HP reservoir, even though their attacks may be quite low without spamming skills. Our SP deplete very fast though. When he went offline I went solo for a bit, around this map right here. It's really annoying that those elder willows are so damn aggresive though, I was just walking around when one attacked me.

Adding these pictures in are no joke, it seems that blogspot isn't very photo friendly.

WILLOWWWSSSmith

HeRO \o/

So I recently got into this server (just yesterday actually) to play with Ian. The server is called HeRO, and the rates are pretty decent. Not that overpowered and everything is ok. Ian said he wanted to play as a crusader, so I thought; okay, I should play as something ranged. My choices were initially Magician or Archer, but then I realized I played as magician a lot previously in other servers so I thought why not? Archer ftw.

Beginner Island! DIE PORINGS DIE

 So I started off in beginner's island or "Novice Island" as they called it. Yeah, as a novice. I did all the quests there, and they sent me to this place where there was a lot of little monsters you dont see in daily life. Although I killed a lot of porings, ChonChons give a whole lot more exp. So I killed until I got to 10 job levels and then moved on.

WILLOWS WHERE ARE YOU

So yeah, to get to become an archer I need to massacre willows and collect their trunks. Apparently to create a high quality bow. I went to the wrong map at first, so only 10 willows were spawning at a time. Walked crazy around the map to find them willows, only saw spores jumping around minding their own business.

SNIPE SNIPE MOTHERFCKER

So yeah. Became an archer the legit way. In previous servers there were job changers so I didnt have to run around helping people do their shit. But this way seems more fulfilling. Hopefully this server will take my interest long enough before they fade again.

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If nobody noticed, its the 100th post \o/
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Today, I will be here to talk about purely random stuff. I don't really have anything decent in mind right now that I can spurt out here, except nonsense of course. I am here to keep the blog alive since it contains a lot of memories. Well, for me that is.

My finals just ended for Year 2, Semester 1 of my degree. It was really hard to cope with so many things in one subject. It is as if the planners were conjuring something evil, like I don't know. A scheme to earn more money perhaps.

During the immensely torturous period of time, my brain was spinning round and round like a senseless cyclone, seven days and seven nights of true terror. I weren't really able to sleep soundly every night, as there would be horrible visions about how unprepared I am as I marched senselessly into the dreaded hall.

Anyway, putting the whole issue of stress, tension and yadda yadda behind; you know what I don't understand? Love. But not only Love, its the little stuff that may or may not come after it. Relationship. Going more into that, we can see all relationships don't turn out like in those Disney movies we love so much. The "Happily Ever After" concept.

We all know "Happy Ever After" do not exist in the human world. Heck, even Enchanted was produced to poke fun into the issue. Many reasons prohibit the availability of this concept, such as; financial issues and human nature. Going deeper into Human Nature, we can pick out one common characteristics of most spoiled relationships. Jealousy. The Green Eyed Monster. The common inability to restrain one's emotion and feeling, subjecting victims to constrains due to low self esteem.

Yeah, I can understand if you can be jealous and insecure when your lover hangs out with his/her opposite sex friends, but you cannot issue a constraining rule telling him/her not to even be in contact with the opposite gender. Unreasonable is what I call it. One's insecurity isn't valid enough a reason to cause second and third party harm. Blasphemy.

So before I rage on further, I should take a chill pill and freeze to death on this here note.

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This Song :P

I know it has been a long time since many people heard this song, and it has been a very long time too. It has been quite an old song now, from then. I might have posted this song, and I might have forgotten that I posted them. It was first introduced to me by a friend :) I will never forget him, though how far apart we may be now.

I also know that people might not be used to see this blog riddled and written around with short essays per posts, but well; I have since lost the flair of writing. That flame that burns around my wrist, tempting me to scribe and scribe has been long gone. My fingers are now just empty shells of what they used to be, fidgety and all exciting to dance around their stage; the keyboard.

Life has it's ups and downs, that is understandable. Recently in my life, its an emotional roller coaster. My looks might be deceiving, though my heart isn't. My brain thinks otherwise, though my heart emotionally judges everything I see. Some things in life do really mislead me. This year has been really dreadful. I met some unreasonable bitches/ and also bastards, hating me for no reason at all. You know, I am so damn open that if you tell me the reason for your hatred I will allow you to hate me, but hating without any reason whatsoever is really letting off this medieval crude "bitch" aura. But just to let you know, I dont give a fck :P . Well I do, but you know.. fck this. My brain says I don't give a fck, but my heart wishes that you fall into a pit of fire and burn till kingdom come.

Sorry guys, for being so vulgar and what not. Whenever I try to be kind and friendly some people just don't get the hint. I am trying to be friends with you, not put something up yo ass. It is times like this that I wonder how you even survive in this world in the first place. Oh look, someone is being friendly, lets look at him with the corner of my eyes and judge him before ignoring him! -genius-

Everybody has haters, that I know. I do know the reason I might be hated. It is cause I am childish, right? I know I can be the most immature person on earth at times, but I don't live to please yo asses yo! coz u kno, yolo.

Joke. I am not duh hipster.

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Putting raging aside, I feel that I am slowly learning to cope with bipolarity. I dont take no medicine, and this bipolarity of mine is self diagnosed. Like I have said maybe 3 to 4 years ago, I can experience emotional roller coasters/ferris wheels more than a lady with hormonal changes.

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SSIDC 2013

From the 18th to 22nd of February, I once again volunteered to run for SSIDC (Don't know what it stands for, but it is mainly an inter-school debate competition organized by Swinburne University of Technology Sarawak Campus.)

I saw many familiar teams from KDL the month before, and though I wished to be able to see how much they have improved, the fates turned against me and I was assigned other teams to run after. Not a bad thing, though. It is fun to see people discuss amongst each other as a team, and then see how much they mature after a round of debate ended. For a runner, this must be one of the things they remember for life. Not a very experienced runner, but yeah.

During the debates going on, I took out my debate file and jotted down their points. It is fun to see how their rebuttals cancel out and how two sides of a coin can interact with each other to find a common ground, yet let a motion either stand or fall. I actually enjoy watching people argue and then finding a solution, so being a runner is in itself holds the best satisfaction.

I met many kinds of people throughout the event. It doesn't really matter who they are and where they are from, because I believe that albeit the many emotional scenes they took part in, they can have their fill of fun. Even if they are not, I want to try my best to make them have fun :P (Sicko).  This event was like an escape to some sort of duty-free haven (Though I was on duty it felt like I was playing around and having fun, cause I mostly was.)


One of the many themed motions. I believe the theme was business? ._.


Amazing people :P (Stole the picture from someone :x, sorry!)

Team Adamantium (Marians) dedicated a song to me during the third day of the event. It was "Lets have a Kiki" by Scissors Sister (Adapted into Glee together with Turkey Lurkey Time too.) Lets just say I am flattered by their dedication, but it got me addicted so yeah. I wanna have a Kiki.

Overall, SSIDC 2013 was amazing. I got to steal some food while serving them (omnomnomnom) and also hand out drinks. I should be a waiter, I enjoy doing these sorts of things.

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KDL 2013

26th of January 2013, my school held a debate event again. It was called the 'KDL' (Kuching Debate League?); and I joined again as an inexperienced runner. There were a lot of times where I panicked but thankfully everything went fine.

The debate was overall interesting, with over sixteen teams consisting of about 10 schools. The themes of the three rounds were: End of the World, Sports and Superheroes respectively. The most exciting theme, in my opinion was the last one. As a runner, I act as the timekeeper in the debate hall, clapping at the appropiate time. There were many creative group names like Adamantium, Fabulous Girls (The team consisted of boys though), Team DAP and Passerby.



The debate topics for round 3. The topics were interesting, though I wished I could see all of them, I only witnessed the debate on the third topic (regarding X-Men).

I am overall very happy to be participating as a runner, everyone helped me well; so I can end this post on a good regard :)

P.S : They should create a theme : The Supernatural

-2013-

-First post in the year 2013-

Regrettably, I have not been able to update the blog continuously on a multiple basis due to various time constrains and also variated cases of LAZINESS. Somehow, it is sad to say that along the semesters of being in university, things are gradually pilling up and everything is becoming harder and harder.

Anyway, 2012 may not be the greatest year- predicted as the end of the world, I waited for the 21st of December to arrive, but sadly nothing happened. Along the year, there were many highlights and things that happened, and I will begin listing them now.

1) Stacy



Stacy has been a loyal friend since we first adopted her earlier in the year 2012, mid-month of January. She's a pomeranian and rottweiller crossbreed. Although not in good condition when we first seen her, we nursed her back to health. Being a loyal dog, we all loved her and provided her with her favorite food often. She would keep good company with my other dog, Tina and bark at strangers that walked pass my backyard (much to our chagrin, but there was near to nothing we can do).

For five months, everything was well, until one day. One dreaded day. I came back from class and my mum was telling me that she won't leave her cage. I went to check on her, and it seems that it was true. No matter how much we called and tried to get her out, she just remained inside while looking at us. There was strong smell of faeces and urine. We decided that she must be sick and so I carried her out of her cage. She was vomitting and defecating a lot, and even she doesnt notice it. On the way to the vet, she was still unwell, and vomitted a lot in the car.

At the vet, the doctor gave her a check up. She said it might be food poisoning, so she made stacy ingest some charcoal powder mixed with water. Stacy vomitted it back out, but the doctor said that it looks like she didnt eat anything bad. She then proceeded to put Stacy on IV drips and said that she might be able to come home on Monday. (It happened on a Friday)

The next day, my mum called home. Back then, I already sensed what would happen. She told me that the doctors asked us to collect the deceased body of Stacy, as she had passed away at the vet overnight. With remorse, we went to collect her body. I was the person in charge of carrying her body, because despite Stacy's petite size, she was pretty heavy. Holding back my tears, I walked outside the vet, still having her in my arms. An innocent young child passed by, and looked at me. I could still remember his gestures, the look in his face- a totally pure entity. He pointed to Stacy's body, and asked if it was my baby. I just nodded.

We buried her in our backyard,  after holding a small ceremony for her. It wasn't easy, but I was convinced that Stacy is now at a better place. My mum, on the other hand was distraught. She, that didn't know how to let go was overcome by stress and despair. Her friend, that heard of her plight pitied her and presented her with two puppies to try to get rid of her sadness.





Ginger and Tini, respectively. Hopefully we would be able to provide them with a happy and prosperous life.

2) Yayasan Sarawak Debate

A debate competition was hosted by my university, SUTS (Swinburne's University of Technology). As I mentioned earlier in my previous posts, I volunteered to help out as a runner. Being a runner was furiously hard a task, but the experiences itself were rewarding. I got to meet many types of people that are good at speaking and expressing their thoughts- and also rude people that think very highly of themselves. It was very fun to hear two teams argue in a formal way to express their opinions about different subjects. Two more competitions are going to be held soon, on the 26th of January and the 18th of February. I will also be volunteering as a runner there, cause it would be a waste not to!


The amazing runners :)

3) Helper

As many may or may not know, I worked as helpers of a few lecturers over the year. I also helped to tutor a lecturer's daughter for a subject, although I myself was not very familiar with the subject. I admit I am not a very good tutor, as my way of understanding may be different from others. Albeit that, I tried hard to help her, and hopefully she did well!

Besides the tutoring job, I also became a half-baked student helper. I helped my lecturers to key in details, and also move out. Sad, but true. It seems that many lecturers I help are most of the time, moving out / resigning from the university. I hope I won't appear as a bad omen and tarnish my reputation anytime soon! Nah, I am just joking. Lecturers, if you are reading this; I wish you the best of luck in the future!

4) Healthier Lifestyle

I have been trying to eat well, at least eating some breakfast and not skipping them every morning like before. Stress from studies are starting to show up on my body- eyebags, slumped back, weight-loss; but I am gradually trying to fix them, so I will mark those on my IN PROGRESS list of work to be done.

It is a good thing to have a park near your neighbourhood. I do, actually. Muara Tabuan's neighbourhood area is quite a luxury, you see. It has a huge park, a football field and also a basketball court. (Sadly, I am not really interested in these ball games [I am a loser]) Once every two days or so, I would bring my dogs for walks, but I dont use the park. I deem the park (even though it is big)- to be too small an repetitive in terms of paths for me, so I bring them around the entire neighbourhood.

5) Changes

Change is the only constant, but many people seem to have changed- in both good ways and bad. I wouldn't deny that I have changed, but I really hope I would have leaned towards the "good" path if I really do change.2012 has been a year said to be the coming of the apocalypse, but I dont think that it is good enough a reason to fall along the lines of whats being considered "bad", coz u kno, YOLO. (Just kidding, this line gives me cancer)

Even though we all have our own circle of friends now, I will always try to at least wave or smile at people that I know when I see them. Hopefully I did not offend anyone along the way and create some enemies :(

6) Making resolutions for 2013

Before the first day of the new year, I was busy thinking of resolutions to make. After some considerations and a few filters I have decided to have at least 3 resolutions to achieve.

- Spend more time with friends and family
- Eat healthy  .. Exercise more .. Eat less junk food
- Learn how to drive well

I do hope I can at least [ / ] provide a tick to these boxes by the end of the year :)

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So looks like that is all for the new year's post, although I am thirteen days late.

Better wish and pray that I will update this junk more often, huh?