This Feeling

Is really sad. Its like the holidays. The first week I was kicking off enjoying the ceasefire. on Sunday, I tried to hold a chat with a friend. Well I was bored at home. I used MSN to chat with him. He was one of my best friends last year, until he migrated. We would always hold this quarreling session where we would quarrel with each other about everything we could come up with. Well, its everything you could think off. Fashion, to pets, to swimming with fishes, sharks, name it. Its similar to a debate. Just cut off with the formalities and POI.

When he had MSN, I was so excited. What would we quarrel about next? So I went with INSTRUMENTS. I asked him if he could play an instrument. Lets put it in dialogue form.

Me - Hmm... Can you play instruments???? :D:D
Friend - can.
Me - What???? 0.0
Friend - Flute
Me - Can you play guitar??
Friend - No
Me - Aw.. and I know by flute you must mean recorder!! :)
Friend - I busy now leh

Felt so awkward holding a passive conversation. I immediately exited MSN.


Seems like everybody is really busy nowadays. Im the only one not doing anything huh...? So well, overwhelmed with a little guilt, I immediately flipped open my Chemistry book and made notes for chapter 2 in form 4. I know its the SPM year, the most important year in high school yadda yadda.. So I try to understand everyone's feelings, and not care what they think about mine. Who cares about our own feelings right? XD

Sometimes when you try to hold a good conversation and it kinda gets ignored because someone is too busy doing something else again. So at the end you will just be bothered and hurt a little.

No, just a little. And then because you are feeling really bothered, you get somewhat annoyed and irritated about your own attitude. So how do you release yourself from the awkward situation?

This is what I do.

HMMPH!!!!!!!!!


And then think about my own actions.

And later not chat with them again for another few days until the atmosphere clears up. Strategy has 50% to work :)



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