I have done almost everything I needed to do today, so why not?
RANDOM QUESTION!!
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This website has a hundred random questions from many different sources
compiled by the hardworking administrator. From 1 to 100, I will expand
these questions into answers in my own words.
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch?
Oh nice, My hands are long. Don't worry. I can stretch them as far as I want, but these joints fixed these arms below my shoulders. Stretched as far as possible, I touched Air.
Theres nothing much to show. Air is just air. Well, we need air to live, right? Without air we will all dry drown at our location. When we were just born, taking in air (breathing) is the first thing we learned how to do involuntarily. It is thus the epitome of life, signifying the moment where we humans, animals and other worldly beings really start to live after breaking out from the womb, in the case of humans and many animals or eggs for the rest.
What we really need in air, is the gas Oxygen, which happens to be around 16% for inhaled air IF I remember correctly? The last time I read this was during my secondary school days. Too much oxygen, however has its adverse effects. Usually, too much oxygen will cause someone to become easily confused and lost.
Breathing oxygen at higher pressures might be fatal, it is called oxygen toxicity and mostly happens when people are breathing by the use of oxygen tanks. Your body cells can be damaged and you might even die!
Isn't it ironic how the oxygen you need most in this world has the capability of killing you?
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Saturday, September 1, 2012
Random Questions (1)
Since the things I have to do are close to Zero at this moment and I am too lazy to study or even revise (I'm not the revising type anyways) I have chosen a fun thing to do.
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This website has a hundred random questions from many different sources compiled by the hardworking administrator. From 1 to 100, I will expand these questions into answers in my own words.
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
Okay, sure. I have a whole bookshelf to myself next to me, and I am going to reach for the nearest book. Oh, joy. It's the Megabest Jokes for Young Readers, by VJ Times.
Well, this is how page 18 looks like, and excluding the titles (Button & Bully) line four would be "The teachers bully me and the boys in my class don't like me." Well, putting aside the fact that these jokes are funny enough to make anyone (possibly everyone) laugh.. It is quite ironic that I can probably relate to this.
You see, I am from an all boys school ever since I was seven. Yes, the age where all children are enrolled in the primary school of their dreams. Wait, let me rephrase. Primary school of their parent's* dreams. Well, I didn't really mind then. It was a good choice. I won't be able to imagine my life being enrolled in any other school besides the school I was in then. I am not going to boast, but from primary one to primary three, I have been the top scorer in my class! I know my maths then, and my English language was up to par. I wouldn't be surprised if my other subjects were marvelous at that time too. I had many friends.
However, during primary four, I got pretty full of myself. Everyone was calling me a clever boy/ a smart boy etc. so I was like "Hey, I am so smart. I don't need to study! I don't even need these books!." That seemed to be my downfall. (Did I mention I was incredibly plump?) The additional subjects added to the list didn't help at all. Because I didn't study, I was bad at everything. I flunked my Historical Studies, Maths, Geography (I'm still bad at it now) etc. My position in terms of marks and grades were at the tail of the class. I didn't mind then, I accepted my position and continued playing and talking. I still had friends.
After the first report card was drawn out and the dreaded parent's day came, everything changed. I can still remember my father's dark aura as he saw my report card. After receiving the report card, he didn't utter a word. He was seriously angry. I guess some of my friends saw that too.
Things changed. Some of the teachers start picking on me because of my stupidity. My Malay Language wasn't as good then, and I can't really communicate well with many of the teachers. Many of the questions asked in class were directed to me. In almost every class, I would be the person that wasn't able to answer questions, required to stand in the class. I was also scolded harshly many times because of my terrible handwriting. (Well, I deserved it anyways. My handwriting was hardly understandable).
I won't really treat this as severe bullying, but just pranks. (Well, I do look like the nerdy kid that MUST be bullied, even now. I wont deny that) People would hide my shoes sometimes and I had to walk to my car with just stockings. During recess, people would steal my workbooks and hide them away. Or just keep them forever. Well, it was a primary school. Children commit childish pranks all the time. I was also picked on by several people, of which I will not name. We have all changed, and I am even on the best terms with them now. :)
The only thing that kept me alive in primary school was my friends. I really appreciated them. Who knows what an innocent child like me would have done then. I would really want to thank all my friends that were together with my when I was in primary school, even though I am not really in touch with some of them right now.
In secondary school, everything went along just fine. I guess everyone has matured.
At the end, I wonder if I did mature at all?
http://www.cfcl.com/vlb/Memes/Questionaires/random_1.html
This website has a hundred random questions from many different sources compiled by the hardworking administrator. From 1 to 100, I will expand these questions into answers in my own words.
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
Okay, sure. I have a whole bookshelf to myself next to me, and I am going to reach for the nearest book. Oh, joy. It's the Megabest Jokes for Young Readers, by VJ Times.
You see, I am from an all boys school ever since I was seven. Yes, the age where all children are enrolled in the primary school of their dreams. Wait, let me rephrase. Primary school of their parent's* dreams. Well, I didn't really mind then. It was a good choice. I won't be able to imagine my life being enrolled in any other school besides the school I was in then. I am not going to boast, but from primary one to primary three, I have been the top scorer in my class! I know my maths then, and my English language was up to par. I wouldn't be surprised if my other subjects were marvelous at that time too. I had many friends.
However, during primary four, I got pretty full of myself. Everyone was calling me a clever boy/ a smart boy etc. so I was like "Hey, I am so smart. I don't need to study! I don't even need these books!." That seemed to be my downfall. (Did I mention I was incredibly plump?) The additional subjects added to the list didn't help at all. Because I didn't study, I was bad at everything. I flunked my Historical Studies, Maths, Geography (I'm still bad at it now) etc. My position in terms of marks and grades were at the tail of the class. I didn't mind then, I accepted my position and continued playing and talking. I still had friends.
After the first report card was drawn out and the dreaded parent's day came, everything changed. I can still remember my father's dark aura as he saw my report card. After receiving the report card, he didn't utter a word. He was seriously angry. I guess some of my friends saw that too.
Things changed. Some of the teachers start picking on me because of my stupidity. My Malay Language wasn't as good then, and I can't really communicate well with many of the teachers. Many of the questions asked in class were directed to me. In almost every class, I would be the person that wasn't able to answer questions, required to stand in the class. I was also scolded harshly many times because of my terrible handwriting. (Well, I deserved it anyways. My handwriting was hardly understandable).
I won't really treat this as severe bullying, but just pranks. (Well, I do look like the nerdy kid that MUST be bullied, even now. I wont deny that) People would hide my shoes sometimes and I had to walk to my car with just stockings. During recess, people would steal my workbooks and hide them away. Or just keep them forever. Well, it was a primary school. Children commit childish pranks all the time. I was also picked on by several people, of which I will not name. We have all changed, and I am even on the best terms with them now. :)
The only thing that kept me alive in primary school was my friends. I really appreciated them. Who knows what an innocent child like me would have done then. I would really want to thank all my friends that were together with my when I was in primary school, even though I am not really in touch with some of them right now.
In secondary school, everything went along just fine. I guess everyone has matured.
At the end, I wonder if I did mature at all?
Friday, August 31, 2012
Starting a New Semester
I'm starting a new semester again, which will commence this coming Monday. Some people like me might say things like "At Last! No more rotting at home!" since it was after a three month long holiday, but...
I'm not done yet!!! Theres a lot to do, and if I had started checking lists, I've probably only completed about 25% this holidays. :(
Anyways, I ''might'' be looking forward to the new semester? I get to meet my friends again after the long break, putting aside the workload of the new semester. As opposed to the last semester, I now have classes on ALL the days, whereas I didnt have any classes on Friday the semester before.
Anyway, I recently participated as a runner for the Yayasan Debate and Public Speaking Competition 2012 which was held at Swinburne's University of Technology just last week. I "volunteered", so I didnt really recieve any pay (well I got free food so I guess its not that bad). My job was easy though. I just need to start a thirty-minute timer right when the motion of the debate is released and lead the corresponding group of debaters to the right room. There, I need to supervise both Government and Opposition benches while they were preparing, and usher them in right as the timer hits thirty. In the debate, I will become the great keeper of time, clapping at the first, sixth, seventh and every subsequent thirty seconds after that for normal speeches and the thirdth, fourth and again every thirty seconds after four for reply speeches. All participants debated very well, and most of them talk better than I myself can. (Well, I am a terrible debater.)
Since I am a runner, I would be in most of the debates acting as a time keeper. I really felt that I have jinxed a particular participating group from Segi College, as I have been timekeeping for them for about four rounds, and for every round that I timekeep for them, they lost points to the opposite benches. (Sorry!) The Segi group was good though, I loved how they argue their points and signal their teammates. The whip speaker would always end her speech with "And we are PROUD to oppose".
There were many interesting motions I wished I could hear the participants debate on, and one of them is about how the house would legalize polygamy. The fourth and final day of the competition was a bit topsy-turvy though, but it was worth the work. If they were another competition like this again, I would even volunteer to be runner again. Absolutely worth the sweat!
The Runners/Registration Team/Helpers + 1 Debater
The Skillful Debaters!
I'm not done yet!!! Theres a lot to do, and if I had started checking lists, I've probably only completed about 25% this holidays. :(
Anyways, I ''might'' be looking forward to the new semester? I get to meet my friends again after the long break, putting aside the workload of the new semester. As opposed to the last semester, I now have classes on ALL the days, whereas I didnt have any classes on Friday the semester before.
Anyway, I recently participated as a runner for the Yayasan Debate and Public Speaking Competition 2012 which was held at Swinburne's University of Technology just last week. I "volunteered", so I didnt really recieve any pay (well I got free food so I guess its not that bad). My job was easy though. I just need to start a thirty-minute timer right when the motion of the debate is released and lead the corresponding group of debaters to the right room. There, I need to supervise both Government and Opposition benches while they were preparing, and usher them in right as the timer hits thirty. In the debate, I will become the great keeper of time, clapping at the first, sixth, seventh and every subsequent thirty seconds after that for normal speeches and the thirdth, fourth and again every thirty seconds after four for reply speeches. All participants debated very well, and most of them talk better than I myself can. (Well, I am a terrible debater.)
Since I am a runner, I would be in most of the debates acting as a time keeper. I really felt that I have jinxed a particular participating group from Segi College, as I have been timekeeping for them for about four rounds, and for every round that I timekeep for them, they lost points to the opposite benches. (Sorry!) The Segi group was good though, I loved how they argue their points and signal their teammates. The whip speaker would always end her speech with "And we are PROUD to oppose".
There were many interesting motions I wished I could hear the participants debate on, and one of them is about how the house would legalize polygamy. The fourth and final day of the competition was a bit topsy-turvy though, but it was worth the work. If they were another competition like this again, I would even volunteer to be runner again. Absolutely worth the sweat!
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
SERENITY [Visual Novel] PG13+
Recently, I got to know a Visual Novel creating program called Novelty.
With it, I created my own Visual Novel.
I did learn a little programming but I am still a newbie so I didn't want to use codes.
Novelty is such a marvellous program such then from where I started to where I completed my first Novel (SERENITY) I didnt once used a code.
It's so user friendly that I didn't need any tutorials. I just opened the program, messed around a bit and got the hold of it.
From then on, it took me four days to complete the Novel.
I weren't a good artist, so I used the default character portraits and backgrounds from the Novelty program. I must say that the characters are drawn very well.
The backgrounds from the KSM list is amazing as well.
It took me about 2 hours to come up with a simple plot, so the story is simple and straightforward. I really do love psychological novels, so I wrote it myself while taking some concepts from other novels.
http://www.4shared.com/zip/CoKAzzf_/Ser ... imehs.html
This is the download link.
The size of the novel is near to 100 mb, ( I am sure it's because of the many back ground musics and sound effects ) since those are the only things I imported.
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As long as I am alive or when I feel like it, I will keep improving the novel, so be sure to give some feedback
Thanks !
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Music Used
Ragnarok Online 63 - Mucho Gusto
Ragnarok Online 109 - Alpen Rose
Ragnarok Online 139 - Sugar Cane Carnival
Ragnarok Online 141 - Tricky Cheeky
Kuroshitsuji Lacrimosa (Kalafina) - Covered by Inochigake Hekireki
This Song (2am) - Covered by Inochigake Hekireki
Clannad Soundtrack 02 - Roaring Tides
Clannad Soundtrack 04 - Town, Flow of Time, People
Clannad Soundtrack 06 - The Place Where Wishes Come True
Air Soundtrack - Aozora Piano Version
Air Soundtrack - Strive
Grandia 2 Soundtrack - Skye's Memory
Grandia 2 Soundtrack - Garden of Dreams
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni OST - Giwaku
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni OST - Kiki
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni OST - Kazashi
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni OST - Main Theme
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni OST - Oyashiro Sama
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni OST - Sankaku
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni OST - Kinchou
Ryuichi Sakamoto - Merry Chrismas, Mr Lawrence
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All Vocals Acted by Inochigake Hekireki and Editted with Audacity
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Storyline by Shodaimehs.
With it, I created my own Visual Novel.
I did learn a little programming but I am still a newbie so I didn't want to use codes.
Novelty is such a marvellous program such then from where I started to where I completed my first Novel (SERENITY) I didnt once used a code.
It's so user friendly that I didn't need any tutorials. I just opened the program, messed around a bit and got the hold of it.
From then on, it took me four days to complete the Novel.
I weren't a good artist, so I used the default character portraits and backgrounds from the Novelty program. I must say that the characters are drawn very well.
The backgrounds from the KSM list is amazing as well.
It took me about 2 hours to come up with a simple plot, so the story is simple and straightforward. I really do love psychological novels, so I wrote it myself while taking some concepts from other novels.
http://www.4shared.com/zip/CoKAzzf_/Ser ... imehs.html
This is the download link.
The size of the novel is near to 100 mb, ( I am sure it's because of the many back ground musics and sound effects ) since those are the only things I imported.
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As long as I am alive or when I feel like it, I will keep improving the novel, so be sure to give some feedback
Thanks !
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Music Used
Ragnarok Online 63 - Mucho Gusto
Ragnarok Online 109 - Alpen Rose
Ragnarok Online 139 - Sugar Cane Carnival
Ragnarok Online 141 - Tricky Cheeky
Kuroshitsuji Lacrimosa (Kalafina) - Covered by Inochigake Hekireki
This Song (2am) - Covered by Inochigake Hekireki
Clannad Soundtrack 02 - Roaring Tides
Clannad Soundtrack 04 - Town, Flow of Time, People
Clannad Soundtrack 06 - The Place Where Wishes Come True
Air Soundtrack - Aozora Piano Version
Air Soundtrack - Strive
Grandia 2 Soundtrack - Skye's Memory
Grandia 2 Soundtrack - Garden of Dreams
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni OST - Giwaku
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni OST - Kiki
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni OST - Kazashi
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni OST - Main Theme
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni OST - Oyashiro Sama
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni OST - Sankaku
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni OST - Kinchou
Ryuichi Sakamoto - Merry Chrismas, Mr Lawrence
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All Vocals Acted by Inochigake Hekireki and Editted with Audacity
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Storyline by Shodaimehs.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Pictures...
Speak a thousand words. Many people have different perceptions to the piece of drawing here. I posted the picture in a Facebook group, and my friends had different views when I asked them to create a story based on their imagination.
Err Domingo :
Theres a person that looked like amano yukiteru and and he's on some kind of lake. More like Lancelot of the lake
Ahmad Hisyam :
An afro ghost is looking at the people outside the picture while enjoying a walk in the moonlight on the grass field
HuanXian Lee :
He has his back against the moon.poor lost soul,haunted by the moon.
Khairil Anad
during the night..but not just any night..the night that is full of nostalgic memories..then i saw an image, of a friend i once knew..smiling away..as if he knew, i would able to redeem the past..
thats my story XD
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In truth, nothing was really going on in my mind as I was drawing this. I just happened to visualize a story while drawing, so I did everything spontaneously. I didn't really give much thought, but I said to myself, how lonely a person would be stuck in the future with the mindset of the past.
Thus, I drew a shrine maiden with traditional clothes and hairstyle (it's not afro by the way) in the modern world. The lights in the distance is another place far towards the sea, a city. Separated by the distance of time, the lonely person turns away, basked in the light of the lonely full moon. Shrouded by the clouds, even the moon cannot accompany the soul lost in the past.
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That was my thoughts to the drawing!
What was yours?
I will make more of these in the future, when I feel like it!
Starting Fresh
I reread my blogs. From the very beginning, to the very end. I realized how much I have grown, how much I have matured. Although I am still (sadly) immature, I have seen some improvement from when I first started blogging and now.
I no longer feel crazily low based on self esteem. I have definitely broken out of a smaller shell, now awaiting countless more to be overcome.
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So please allow me to start again, in a different light.
Hello everyone, hello readers. Hello friend who are kind enough to pay attention to this lowly space. Stalkers that stalk the blog, you are very most welcome.
I am an ordinary young adult that aspires to be someone that is special. Someone that of significance. Although that is what I say- or what I might say.. I don't actually believe I can do it. I am average in my studies, leaning more to book smarts instead of street smarts. So to say, my theoretical mindset is much more dominant than my logical one, many a time causing me to act like a puppet to constitution.
My hobbies are singing and reading mangas, also watching anime. My manga reading skills are amazing, I can finish reading a whole manga series of a hundred chapters in a day IF I put my entire mind to it. My eyes just cant keep up. My singing skills are below average. I do, however love singing so I try to dedicate my body and soul to it. I often record covers of Jpop to Youtube, (My singing)- but the sound quality in my recordings happen to be the archilles heel of my channel. I have a terrible microphone that makes me sound muffled, and have wasted countless amount of money buying new ones, but to no avail. Sadly, no good microphones are available where I am at, and the only way I can get proper recording equipment is by shipment. And I think its very taxing.
My looks? Below average. My eyes aren't even properly proportioned and my hair is such a mess. Since its so thick, combs rarely work magic on it. I am not even fit at all, but well- I believe every man has a six pack. I just prefer to protect the six pack with a premium ONE! The only strong point I have is my height. I am very tall. I can easily roof over some of my friends, but thats it. I don't even know why I am tall, I dont play basketball or what.
My future? I just want a simple plain one. I don't have to be filthy rich or what. I don't care If I live in an apartment / a rented room. A simple job will do. I dont have my expectations set too high, so even if I fail my own expectations I would still be on some cloud nine.
Love?
Thats a confidential matter~
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I have started anew.
Thank you for listening/ reading!
I no longer feel crazily low based on self esteem. I have definitely broken out of a smaller shell, now awaiting countless more to be overcome.
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So please allow me to start again, in a different light.
Hello everyone, hello readers. Hello friend who are kind enough to pay attention to this lowly space. Stalkers that stalk the blog, you are very most welcome.
I am an ordinary young adult that aspires to be someone that is special. Someone that of significance. Although that is what I say- or what I might say.. I don't actually believe I can do it. I am average in my studies, leaning more to book smarts instead of street smarts. So to say, my theoretical mindset is much more dominant than my logical one, many a time causing me to act like a puppet to constitution.
My hobbies are singing and reading mangas, also watching anime. My manga reading skills are amazing, I can finish reading a whole manga series of a hundred chapters in a day IF I put my entire mind to it. My eyes just cant keep up. My singing skills are below average. I do, however love singing so I try to dedicate my body and soul to it. I often record covers of Jpop to Youtube, (My singing)- but the sound quality in my recordings happen to be the archilles heel of my channel. I have a terrible microphone that makes me sound muffled, and have wasted countless amount of money buying new ones, but to no avail. Sadly, no good microphones are available where I am at, and the only way I can get proper recording equipment is by shipment. And I think its very taxing.
My looks? Below average. My eyes aren't even properly proportioned and my hair is such a mess. Since its so thick, combs rarely work magic on it. I am not even fit at all, but well- I believe every man has a six pack. I just prefer to protect the six pack with a premium ONE! The only strong point I have is my height. I am very tall. I can easily roof over some of my friends, but thats it. I don't even know why I am tall, I dont play basketball or what.
My future? I just want a simple plain one. I don't have to be filthy rich or what. I don't care If I live in an apartment / a rented room. A simple job will do. I dont have my expectations set too high, so even if I fail my own expectations I would still be on some cloud nine.
Love?
Thats a confidential matter~
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I have started anew.
Thank you for listening/ reading!
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Yatagarasu
(Picture from www.wikipedia.com)
AKA the Three-legged crow
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This is the Yatagarasu, a symbolism of the sun in many places around the world [It was seen on murals in the Egyptian myths and also ancient coins from two other places (Wikipedia)]. It is believed to be the mother of nuclear fission.
It also appeared in the Chinese Mythology, generally known as the sānzúwū [三足烏]- appearing on many ancient Chinese pottery and embroidery.
There was a folk story about the earth long ago, that was experiencing severe problems due to the world then having ten suns. To safe his village, the celestial archer Houyi shot down nine of the suns, leaving only one in the sky with his supreme bow and arrows. Nine of the suns that was shot down fell dead to the ground as crows. These crows are then known as the Sun Crows. Another folk story told of the Queen Mother of the West in China that owns three green birds that has three legs.
In Japan, the Yatagarasu is well known and symbolized as a god. In the belief of Shinto, it is a well known and powerful entity, a celestial being reincarnated to earth to bring prosperity and protect Japan, acting as its core. In Korea, on the other hand the Yatagarasu (known as Samjok-o in Korea) portrays a divine being- not on equal grounds but SUPERIOR to the legendary Dragon and Phoenix.
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In an article I read, when the Japanese was in Singapore decades ago, they bought a powerful weapon with them to ensure their victory. Making their base in Singapore, they built a shrine to house the weapon- Syonan Jinja.
When their forces in Singapore was overpowered, some Japanese warriors sacrificed themselves by a traditional method to ensure that their souls live on to protect the divine weapon. The divine treasure of gods. The powerful entity protecting Japan from afar.
Sounds familiar? - May it be the Yatagarasu?
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Nowadays, the dense jungles that surround and enclose Syonan Jinja is slowly declining due to urbanization. The safety of the lonely Yatagarasu that seeks refuge at said location might be in danger. Or is it angry? Does it want to bring forth judgement?
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Does the legendary god Yatagarasu reside in Syonan Jinja in Singapore?
It's only a hypothesis- but isn't the age of gods really close to where we are now?
I shall leave the ending up to you..
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Quarrels
Quarrels happen very frequently in my household. Yes- quarrels are essential for a better relationship, but the quarrels in my household gets everyone nowhere. Besides being pointless, it makes everyone HATE and DISRESPECT each other more instead of building a stronger relationship.
I am freaking tired of quarrels that happen right in front of my eyes. If you people want to quarrel, bring it somewhere else. Why do I have to put up with this?
Case 1
Dad + Mom
Quarrels. 50% of the time, the quarrels are caused by me. They sometimes quarrel over me. Over how incompetent I am in life. Over how useless I am. Pointless. Utterly pointless. They also quarrel over some other confidential stuff. The way I freaking see everything, it is pointless. This is a pointless debate. A meaningless discussion. Both sides think that they are right. Both sides already closed their mind. They already set a device restricting access of any opinions, but allowing only their self opinions. One says the other is a self opinioned person, but nevertheless fail to realize his/her own attitude in handling said problems.
Pains my heart to see how the pointless activity damages household mood, lowers my respect for both parties and scars everyone's life.
Mom + Sis
Quarrels almost everyday. Over how dangerous life is. When sis wants to go out, a quarrel will break out. Sure, parents will worry about their child, but a scenario goes like this.
1. Parent scolds child bitterly. Child obeys parents and grow up to hate them.
2. Parent scolds child bitterly. Child doesn't obey parents. Child goes out, and take for instance die with the memories of parent scolding him/her bitterly.
3. Parent tells child gently, child understands and grow up to respect them.
4. Parent tells child gently, child dies in a case with memories of his/her gentle parents.
5. Shit
6. Shit
7. Shit
It is not hard for a religiously inclined person to understand the simple concept of compassion. If you do not abide by the ways of compassion, your involvement in religious activities can be said to go to waste.
Sibling Quarrel
I grew up with a facade that everybody should live together in peace and harmony. When I see people quarrel, it annoys me. When my siblings quarrel POINTLESSLY, it wounds me. It happened once, and I won't see each and every one of my siblings the same way again.
When I find someone I don't know annoying me, I will ignore them. Many choose to punch annoying rascals in the face. But for siblings, they must give and take. ( Not as in exchanging fists )
Why not a formal discussion instead of a stupid quarrel?
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It sure seem to round up that almost every quarrel that happen in this household is a fault of mine.
Why am I the only one that seem to be able to let go of internal emotions joggling the mind so that It doesn't cause conflicts?
I wish I can leave this household soon.
I am freaking tired of quarrels that happen right in front of my eyes. If you people want to quarrel, bring it somewhere else. Why do I have to put up with this?
Case 1
Dad + Mom
Quarrels. 50% of the time, the quarrels are caused by me. They sometimes quarrel over me. Over how incompetent I am in life. Over how useless I am. Pointless. Utterly pointless. They also quarrel over some other confidential stuff. The way I freaking see everything, it is pointless. This is a pointless debate. A meaningless discussion. Both sides think that they are right. Both sides already closed their mind. They already set a device restricting access of any opinions, but allowing only their self opinions. One says the other is a self opinioned person, but nevertheless fail to realize his/her own attitude in handling said problems.
Pains my heart to see how the pointless activity damages household mood, lowers my respect for both parties and scars everyone's life.
Mom + Sis
Quarrels almost everyday. Over how dangerous life is. When sis wants to go out, a quarrel will break out. Sure, parents will worry about their child, but a scenario goes like this.
1. Parent scolds child bitterly. Child obeys parents and grow up to hate them.
2. Parent scolds child bitterly. Child doesn't obey parents. Child goes out, and take for instance die with the memories of parent scolding him/her bitterly.
3. Parent tells child gently, child understands and grow up to respect them.
4. Parent tells child gently, child dies in a case with memories of his/her gentle parents.
5. Shit
6. Shit
7. Shit
It is not hard for a religiously inclined person to understand the simple concept of compassion. If you do not abide by the ways of compassion, your involvement in religious activities can be said to go to waste.
Sibling Quarrel
I grew up with a facade that everybody should live together in peace and harmony. When I see people quarrel, it annoys me. When my siblings quarrel POINTLESSLY, it wounds me. It happened once, and I won't see each and every one of my siblings the same way again.
When I find someone I don't know annoying me, I will ignore them. Many choose to punch annoying rascals in the face. But for siblings, they must give and take. ( Not as in exchanging fists )
Why not a formal discussion instead of a stupid quarrel?
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It sure seem to round up that almost every quarrel that happen in this household is a fault of mine.
Why am I the only one that seem to be able to let go of internal emotions joggling the mind so that It doesn't cause conflicts?
I wish I can leave this household soon.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Omnomnomnom
This is my BRUNCH for today. Holidays are getting on my nerves, causing me to wake up as "early" as twelve. I missed breakfast, so I had to go for a brunch instead. Cooked by my sister.
> Stir fried food (carrots, lettuce and franks)
> Fried ground meat
Om the nomnom.
Time
You fly pass me very quickly.
yes, you do.
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It was like it was just yesterday I graduated from high school. It was like just yesterday everything started. I can still remember everything clearly right from the root.
Being in the tense examination hall, wearing my sweaty school uniform.. hair being like one of a soldier's.. Being done with the examination, moving on with life, into a higher tier of education..
I still remember some big fat white furball rubbing against my legs, being everywhere I was to listen to what I have to say, the sad things I want to express..
But for all I know, she would be in a better place right now. She wouldn't have to endure much more suffering like at the very final moments of her life. For that, I am thankful. I will continue to be happy for her.
It was also just like it was just yesterday that I finished my foundation course. During the term, I met lots of awesome people. Everyone was a little scary at first, but after you get to know them you will literally scream with joy every time you meet them.
I met people from many countries, learned many things about their life, but my interest never falters. Not after all this while, but always. I am still interested in Japan.
Nearing the current timeline, I met a person from Japan over the internet. Chatted a while. It widened my interest in Japan. I don't care if its a nuclear infested country or what anyone says. I would rather be a monster that lived in Japan than an ignorant brat that doesn't want to see the land of dreams.
It was like everything just happened yesterday.... or today... or maybe it did happen today..?
All I know now is that Chinese New Year comes... NEXT WEEK.
What do I do..? what do I DO?? I am not mentally prepared yet!!
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I am eighteen going on nineteen. I AM NOT MENTALLY PREPARED TO PLUNGE INTO THE WORLD OF ADULTS DAMN YOU AGING SYSTEM.
So until I am ready again, I am still a sweet, young and childish fifteen year old. Thank you very much.
yes, you do.
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It was like it was just yesterday I graduated from high school. It was like just yesterday everything started. I can still remember everything clearly right from the root.
Being in the tense examination hall, wearing my sweaty school uniform.. hair being like one of a soldier's.. Being done with the examination, moving on with life, into a higher tier of education..
I still remember some big fat white furball rubbing against my legs, being everywhere I was to listen to what I have to say, the sad things I want to express..
But for all I know, she would be in a better place right now. She wouldn't have to endure much more suffering like at the very final moments of her life. For that, I am thankful. I will continue to be happy for her.
It was also just like it was just yesterday that I finished my foundation course. During the term, I met lots of awesome people. Everyone was a little scary at first, but after you get to know them you will literally scream with joy every time you meet them.
I met people from many countries, learned many things about their life, but my interest never falters. Not after all this while, but always. I am still interested in Japan.
Nearing the current timeline, I met a person from Japan over the internet. Chatted a while. It widened my interest in Japan. I don't care if its a nuclear infested country or what anyone says. I would rather be a monster that lived in Japan than an ignorant brat that doesn't want to see the land of dreams.
It was like everything just happened yesterday.... or today... or maybe it did happen today..?
All I know now is that Chinese New Year comes... NEXT WEEK.
What do I do..? what do I DO?? I am not mentally prepared yet!!
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I am eighteen going on nineteen. I AM NOT MENTALLY PREPARED TO PLUNGE INTO THE WORLD OF ADULTS DAMN YOU AGING SYSTEM.
So until I am ready again, I am still a sweet, young and childish fifteen year old. Thank you very much.
Monday, January 9, 2012
Midnight
Things to do at MIDNIGHT?
There is a lot actually. For me, I usually SLEEP at midnight. During holidays however something happens to stretch my bedtime over the midnight barrier and I always end up sleeping at one to two. It is not much, but it gets me this tiredness the next morning.
Sometimes I cant sleep because my pillow gets too warm. If possible I would like a pillow that stays cool forever. A water pillow?
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I spend my days reading manga more than watching anime now- most of the manga are actually more detailed in terms of script and storyline than the anime. The manga is also longer than the anime series itself.
I have begun picking up on these mangas
1. The World Only God Knows
A manga with a very interesting storyline. It starts off boring but it gets better later on. It is about a guy that spends his time playing dating sim games- and something happens that forces him to use the tactics he had learned from the game and apply it in real life to capture girls.
2. The Cage of Eden
A great manga based on the survivability of humans on an island full of prehistoric animals ( Andrewsarchus, Smilodon, Diatryma etc. ) The animals are vicious even though they might be herbivors. With almost no resources, they have to use their brains and physical energy to survive. Great read.
3. Beelzebub
A funny manga about the demon king's son, Beelzebub that has to be guardian-ed by a high school gangster. As the series go on, the main character becomes more and more powerful, even surpassing many demons.
4. Fairy Tail
Needless to say, I continued on the manga that I had given up on. It became more and more interesting somehow.
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I feel so lifeless now. Sure I have a life but I feel that I am not doing anything worthwhile with it. Sigh. Nothing to do until job/school starts.
Goodbye :)
There is a lot actually. For me, I usually SLEEP at midnight. During holidays however something happens to stretch my bedtime over the midnight barrier and I always end up sleeping at one to two. It is not much, but it gets me this tiredness the next morning.
Sometimes I cant sleep because my pillow gets too warm. If possible I would like a pillow that stays cool forever. A water pillow?
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I spend my days reading manga more than watching anime now- most of the manga are actually more detailed in terms of script and storyline than the anime. The manga is also longer than the anime series itself.
I have begun picking up on these mangas
1. The World Only God Knows
A manga with a very interesting storyline. It starts off boring but it gets better later on. It is about a guy that spends his time playing dating sim games- and something happens that forces him to use the tactics he had learned from the game and apply it in real life to capture girls.
2. The Cage of Eden
A great manga based on the survivability of humans on an island full of prehistoric animals ( Andrewsarchus, Smilodon, Diatryma etc. ) The animals are vicious even though they might be herbivors. With almost no resources, they have to use their brains and physical energy to survive. Great read.
3. Beelzebub
A funny manga about the demon king's son, Beelzebub that has to be guardian-ed by a high school gangster. As the series go on, the main character becomes more and more powerful, even surpassing many demons.
4. Fairy Tail
Needless to say, I continued on the manga that I had given up on. It became more and more interesting somehow.
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I feel so lifeless now. Sure I have a life but I feel that I am not doing anything worthwhile with it. Sigh. Nothing to do until job/school starts.
Goodbye :)
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