Time Passes so Quickly

This is my puppy Summer. She is 2 months old when this picture is taken. doesn't she look cute? I looked at her each day. My brother would always clean up the mess she made at home. She was the most playful thing I've ever seen. Bad egg right? normally labradors would be mature, sitting around in a corner sleeping the whole day off. But her? She would occational jump on me and climb behind my back while I was reading the book on the sofa. I was lying face down reading the book by the way. Then she would chase her puppy toy around the house whenever we threw it somewhere. Every now and then, We would train her to do stuff. Im the one that teached her how to shake paws !!!!

One day, a neighbour came to us. Looking at Summer, she was amazed and stated that Summer had grown quite alot. I was mesmerized. Alot? She barely even grows!!! And then I saw the second picture. And I realised that it had been two years since we had Summer. She grew from the picture below to the one up there.

And she is still playful!!!

but she looks naive and innocent.

Thats why we all Love her.

The Violin Two Days Before

*screech screech screech screech*
(The students outside closing ears)
(The instructor sweating)
(Im sweating too -_-)
(My hands are numb)
(My fingers hurt o_o)

Oh wait. Its just my imagination. This is the real deal.

Instructor : Come in~
Me : Hai desu~ ( Yes Sir~)
Instructor : Take out your violin
Me : Hai desu~

(After 5 minutes of constantly wiping the bow with the round gem thingy)

Instructor : Okay play this piece.
Me : Old MacDonald had a farm? ( MUST BE EASY!!! )

*starts playing*

G..G..

Instructor : No! thats wrong. Even without the rests you must stop in between the notes.

*starts playing again*

G.....G.....G.....D....(SCREECH SCREECH SCREECH)

Instructor : Don't worry, carry on.. play the piece again. Start from the beginning.

*starts playing again*

G..G..

Instructor : No.. you must follow the notes
Me : Oops, sorry.

*starts playing again*

(SCREEEEEEEEECH)

Instructor : Calm down, spread your legs, its not good to play the violin while standing up straight. Take a deep breath... ( Takes out his own violin )

*Both of us starts playing at the same time*
(It sounds so nice and it soothes the ears *dazzle eyes* )

(1 Minute passed)

Instructor : Okay thats all for today,Keep your violin.Now you can start doing your theory.
Me : Okay ( BUT I WANNA PLAY MORE!!! I WANT TO PLAY THE VIOLIN ROAR ROAR ROAR )

*walks out quietly while another student walks into the class*

Me : ( Oh no.. I don't know how to do this question )
Yaruki : Hekireki-kun, onegai taskeru desu.. kono "question" wa honto-ni yaruki janai desu kashira yo..(yaruki also means easy)
Hekireki : Baka Yaruki.. Shimpai surunda.. omae no "determination" wa hontoni ga nai shi.
Yaruki : Onegai desu~
Hekireki : Datte Datte... boku mo wakaranai yo!!

(door opens)

Instructor : Any problems?
Me : Yeah!! This here question is impossible right??
Instructor : Nope you see this two quavers in front, since its 3/4, you can take the minim from the back and add it to the front making it a 3/4 note. So bla bla bla bla bla...
Me : (Was I talking to myself out loud just now?)

The End

Hope you enjoyed. Its part of your everyday life right?

Lessons learned :

1 ) Try and try again. Even if you fail, you would probably come up with something interesting.
2 ) If there is a question that needs to be answered, talk to your other self until someone comes out from the door behind you.
3 ) You must always spread your legs when playing the violin cause if you keep your legs too close your blood can't flow properly and you can't look cool with your legs close together.
4 ) You must write comments on my blog posts, because thats the only way I can improve
5 ) You must tolerate your students no matter how horrible they are, and if you can't stand them anymore play the violin louder then theirs to cover up for their screeching noise.

thats all :)

~ Phobia ~

Phobias are... I don't know how to explain it.
I studied it in Wikipedia a minute ago.
Maybe I should refer so I can write more about it.

Phobia
Its a form of anxiety disorder.
An American study by the National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) found that between 8.7% and 18.1% of Americans suffer from phobias.

That little? I was expecting more.
I thought it was more common.

Anyways, Im quite sure that I have phobias.
If its not phobias, then it would just be what im afraid of.

Acrophobia
Heights!! Scary... but this comes conditionally. When I have something to hold on to when im standing on a high platform then im not afraid anymore

Algophobia
Hah. This phobia is just ridiculous. Im sure everyone in this world has it. the fear of pain.Or maybe most of them since those that practise yoga twists and turns their body claiming that pain is just an illusion.

Decidophobia
Im afraid of making decisions. This may be the way that im raised up. My parents were always making decisions for me until im twelve. Im now afraid that if the decision I make turns into a burden for everyone I would be punished.

Xenophobia
Im afraid of going anywhere without someone I know to accompany me. Im afraid of strangers too much I think.. Once I went to a tuition that has a class full of people I don't know. I was like shivering and sweating until the class ended. The reason I never went to any seminars at all.

Scoleciphobia
Oh my goodness.. wriggly wriggly.... scary.... must... not ..... touch....I HATE WORMS!! ESPECIALLY MILLIPEDES AND EARTHWORMS!! I CAN FEEL THEM WRIGGLING ON MY FEET AAAAHHHHHHH!!!! Yep.. Real Scary..

Deep Water Phobia
Have you ever looked into a river or pond with deep water, like waterfront? It freaks me out. I was afraid that I would drop in the water and swim with the fishes.

Readers, look up phobias in Wikipedia and share your phobias too :D

( And there seem to be no one that even reads this so like.. whatever. )

Me = Weirdo

10 Fun Facts about what makes me think Im a weirdo that other people agree with that makes me sad that makes me lonely that makes me depressed which leads to me writing on a blog that creates viewers but nobody actually views it except me so it seems like a diary but I shouldn't write it like a diary incase someone comes in and look at it because I input my secrets in a diary so like whatever because this is gonna be the longest sentence in history of my blog posts which makes it my longest blog post ever right?????

WRONG.

Lets get back to topic.

1 ) I often talk to myself in Japanese even though I don't actually know what im talking about.
2 ) I sing fandubs and post them in youtube but so far nobody looks at them yet so it makes me sad
3 ) I write rubbish in my blog so no one actually wants to read them which makes me even more dissapointed
4 ) I love my doggies to the point that my future changes for them
5 ) I love anime to the point that I am obsessed with them.
6 ) I watch Disney channel, Cartoon Network and Nickelodeon ( Only children watch playhouse disney )
7 ) I enjoy teasing the friends I hate to the point that they don't talk to me for a day. ( Whatever it is the next day everything resets back to normal )
8 ) Nobody likes me when im bad tempered so i try not to be like my father.
9 ) I hunger for blogs
10 ) I enjoy hearing people talking about me.

SEE..

IM SUCH A WEIRDO..

sigh.. sigh.. sigh... sigh...

Nobody will like me anymore :(

Yuki-Onna REAL STORY

Remember the Yuki-Onna story that I wrote that day, this is the real version.

A long time ago, there lived two woodcutters, Minokichi and Mosaku. Minokichi was young and Mosaku was very old.
One winter day, they could not come back home because of a snowstorm. They found a hut in the mountain and decided to sleep there. On this particular evening, Minokichi woke up and found a beautiful lady with white clothes. She breathed on old Mosaku and he was frozen to death.
She then approached Minokichi in order to breathe on him, but then stared at him for a while, and said: "I thought I was going to kill you, the same as that old man, but I will not, because you are young and beautiful. You must not tell anyone about this incident. If you tell anyone about me, I will kill you."
Several years later, Minokichi met a beautiful young lady, named Oyuki (yuki = "snow") and married her. She was a good wife. Minokichi and Oyuki had several children and lived many years happily. Mysteriously, she did not age at all.
One night, after the children were asleep, Minokichi said to Oyuki: "Whenever I see you, I am reminded of a mysterious incident that happened to me. When I was young, I met a beautiful young lady like you. I do not know whether it was dream or she was a Yuki-onna..."
After finishing his story, Oyuki suddenly stood up, and said "That woman you met was me! I told you that I would kill you if you ever told anyone about that incident. However, I can't kill you because of our children. Take care of our children... " Then she melted and disappeared.
After that, no one saw her.

Oh well ")

My Future

Im sure everyone thought of their future even once...

RIGHT?

Fine.. not everyone..

Well...
I don't really intent to share the same future as all the normal humans in the world..

I want a more interesting life..

A life as....

Me? o.o

Don't be ridiculous...

Hmm... lets see...

When I grow up, I will try to work hard in being a genetic engineer first.
My true reason of the job is pretty simple...
I can't bear to see my two favorite dogs die.
And well... My Science teacher once told me that IF I become a genetic engineer I would be able to bring everything back to life. By cloning or creation. Then I could recreate all my friends and families and like... program them to act as I like?

NAH

Thats pretty pointless. I would hate to always be able to predict what happens next. I wish everything would be unpredictable. WELL.. Not everything.. but like.. some?

Then, when I am going steady with my first job, probably around my twenties or thirties I will want to go to the land of the rising sun. Japan.
Its my dream to become a voice actor.

Eventhough my voice really sux. Sigh....

I want the people to hear my voice through TV.. Interviews... Games... Singing...

I want to pour out my hopes and dreams to the people through my voice.

I guess thats the only way I can do it.

Maybe when im at Japan I would probably work till a ripe age of 55 and retire. Then maybe I can find my future family there. Who knows?

Thats it, my simple future.. not as interesting and different as any of my other friends, but like... who cares?

Its my life. My ambitions. My dreams. What I place my hopes and strength into.

What I want everyone to know. And plan their future carefully too.

What a dramatic end to my blog post..

But like.. oh well?

What a DAY

I was having a very nice dream about being RICH and..

I GOT WOKEN UP BY MY DOGGIE....

NOOOOO!!!

The riches are like falling from my hands!!!!!!! AGHHHH!!!!

Gah. Anyways I had violin lesson yesterday.

Its like off tune , off tune , RIGHT TUNE!!! , off tune , screech , off tune.

The teacher is like..

Noo!! Noo!!! Yea!!! Noo! Oh my god.. Noo!!

And I was like..

Oh no, Oh no, Phew, Oh no , **** , Oh no..

And the whole lesson was like...

Nah its okay I think :(

Oh well.. I should be ending my idiocy now right?

*stops writing* ( Or typing )

Rant of 13/11/08

Please forgive my violence in the ranting of the day, 13/11/08

Why am I being kept at home and now allowed to go for outings with my friends? I feel like a trapped parakeet inside a cage. I can't go out. Ever.

THIS IS OUTRAGEOUS.

HOW CAN THEY KEEP ME FROM MY FRIENDS

Nah.. they just want to be protective of me... oh wait..

WTH IM ALREADY FIFTEEN WHY SHOULD I STAY AT HOME!!!!!

Nah... its a dangerous world out there.. what am I thinking...

GAH ARMED WITH MY NEEDLE PEN I COULD JUST KILL THOSE STUPID VILLIANS THAT POSE THREATS TO ME RIGHT???!!!

Oh wait... would I get any penalty for killing someone?...

I DON'T THINK SO... IM JUST TRYING TO PROTECT MYSELF... RIGHT???!!! RIGHT?????!!!!

Oh neverm (ind).... I sound like a stupid brat ranting about such a small problem and should just stay at home and rot.

Yuki Onna

Once upon a time, there was a boy named Narabu. He was six years and is living with his father. One day, a lady in white with silky black hair barged in their house. the lady froze Narabu's father to death and seeing that Narabu was still young, she told Narabu :

"Since you are still young, I will spare your life. But if you dare tell anyone about this happening, I shall take your life"

With that, the lady retreated into the woods.

Narabu, who was still six years old at the moment tried to make money to earn a living. When he was eighteen years old, he married a lady named Yukishiro.

They lived happily and had a daughter named Hanashiro.

However, on one snowy night Narabu told Yukishiro:

"There is one thing that I cannot forget in my life, but I made a promise not to tell anyone."

Yukishiro then pestered Narabu to tell her and threatened:

"If you do not tell me then what reason do I have to live?"

Narabu then thought it was okay because Yukishiro is, after all her wife!
So he told her everything.

Then something that Narabu did not expect happened.

Yukishiro turned into the lady he met twelve years ago.

"I told you not to tell anyone else but you attempted to.. I was going to kill you but our daughter is still young and I don't want to see her without any parents, so I will spare you."

And with that, Yukishiro disappeared into thin air.

Narabu cried and asked his dear wife for forgiveness.

It was too late. She will never come back again.

Then on, Narabu raised Hanashiro to be a fine lady of excellent manners.

By now, she would be sixteen years old. But she had not known the truth.

Will she discover the truth and search for her mother?

To be continued....


Hi!! Im Hekireki! I found some info of the Yuki Onna ( Snow Lady ), One of the Japanese demons and I think that the story is indeed interesting.

Well then!

The "Me" Behind The Mask

I never knew starting a blog was this easy!

I was born in 1993, a kid that has obsessions with everything Japanese.
I got my obsessions from this Japanese website, Nico Nico Douga.
Its like an anti drug. A happiness that made me happy and warm all inside.

I should just get to the point, right?

Well...

Im a hypocrite.
I hide my real emotions MOST of the time.
When im actually happy, I act as if im sad.
When im actually care about someone, I act ignorant.
When I really want something, I act as if it is not important.

Why?

I don't really want to hurt the human feelings.

My sisters and brothers are all older then me by seven years.
I lack the warmth and joy of having them.

So, I created an entity to be with me and play with me.
When I attended middle school, I met friends that played with me and listen to my problems attentively.
The entity slowly faded. It became a part of me. A small part of me.

With the entity, I am slowly able to cope better with my life. It taught me to hide my feelings more. By hiding them, I am able to keep them from being hurt.

Do you want to know what a split personality actually feels like for me?
I am aware of what each of my personalities are doing. I actually control them. It is just that the interests and level of ability to control your feelings differ.

Do I actually show my diffrent personalities often?
I don't know *cries*

Neverm (ind)

This marks the first post of my BLOG.

Bye - Bee!!