Eid ul-fitr and INDEPENDENCE DAY, Malaysia. As much sorrow and bad times I have had when I remained in this country of mine, It has still stayed with me through good and bad times, so Happy Independence Day and Happy Raya :)
12 hours ago, that time last year I would be at the dimly lit stadium of my school singing oh so irritating, jaw breaking, high pitched (damn I cant reach that pitch)songs of independence. But look at where I am now. In my room. Facebooking. Blogging. Youtubing. Wheres my life!? [ Yeah, KiiKii.. as if singing those high pitched song gives you a life.. oh wow I'm breaking the third wall!! BREAK BREAK ]
This Year's Hari Raya Checklist
Kek Lapis [ ]
Kuih Momo [ ]
Colourful Cookies [ ]
Not-so-Colourful Cookies [ ]
Kek Keju [ ]
Ayam Kurma [ ]
Ayam Masak Merah [ ]
Nasi Harum [ ]
Green Packets [ ]
Ah.. maybe next year :P
I didn't know that university was this tiring. I took two days off just for the fun, but you see.. The holiday homework has accumulated to so much. Oh well. Gonna spend the last day of Raya finishing those workload. I feel like a mechabuffalo+
I am happy with my life. I cant imagine life without a life. I am content with everything I already have now. If one of anything gets out of place the obsessive-compulsive-disorder person I already am will be utterly disinterested with life.
Thank You, Greater Entity (G.E) for giving me this life. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I have been through thick and thin, but it is all worth it.
Smile.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Mind
My mind is closed. Sorry to say- whatever you tell me wont get into my mind. I have placed a barrier to protect my own emotions from getting out of hand- to prevent myself from hurting other people and more importantly myself. Hey, I have been living quite a short time, but whatever you think you have went through before- I have went through it twice.
Sorry to say too, this barrier no one can penetrate. I have partially cut off all ties- I have sealed half my emotions. Yes. I am afraid of change. Who isn't?
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Recently, I have begun to feel more differently. There must be a bug in the system. The barrier defence system is going haywire. There was a huge threat somewhere that almost caused my emotions to go haywire. This situation has affected my working capacity greatly. I have prompted several commands to try cut off the ties again.. but none of them seems to be possible. I should just set up more barriers to seal my feelings off completely. No one will get hurt. My feelings will never be accepted by simple means. The original probability of success was 13.7%- risk is a system I would never adopt. Time passing fast, the probability decreased to a mere 3.2% an impossible boundary to break. I prompted to give up several times. I have a good feeling it will succeed if I create more barriers. I will stop trying to break the fourth wall. I shall abide by the rules of the world.
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Let me tell you a story about a person that wont die. Once upon a time there lived a person that wont die. He was attacked , involved in accidents , contacted death numerous times. But he kept reviving. He just couldn't die. If he was stabbed, his wound would dissipate in five seconds. When his body parts were crushed completely a light would come from the skies and he would appear whole in ten seconds. When his arm was chopped off, the same thing would happen, and his arms would regenerate within a second. He cannot die. He has seen everything. He had went through everything.
He had seen enough. He had experienced enough. He soon sought out various methods to die. It tried to hang itself. That just didn't work. It tried to dunk itself in acid. That didn't work out too. It didn't die. It just became a useless thing. A dab of nothingness in the world's eye.
It didn't know the world was trying to send him a message.
It continues its cycle till now. Unable to find peace. For that is what he desired not to approach.
Sorry to say too, this barrier no one can penetrate. I have partially cut off all ties- I have sealed half my emotions. Yes. I am afraid of change. Who isn't?
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Recently, I have begun to feel more differently. There must be a bug in the system. The barrier defence system is going haywire. There was a huge threat somewhere that almost caused my emotions to go haywire. This situation has affected my working capacity greatly. I have prompted several commands to try cut off the ties again.. but none of them seems to be possible. I should just set up more barriers to seal my feelings off completely. No one will get hurt. My feelings will never be accepted by simple means. The original probability of success was 13.7%- risk is a system I would never adopt. Time passing fast, the probability decreased to a mere 3.2% an impossible boundary to break. I prompted to give up several times. I have a good feeling it will succeed if I create more barriers. I will stop trying to break the fourth wall. I shall abide by the rules of the world.
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Let me tell you a story about a person that wont die. Once upon a time there lived a person that wont die. He was attacked , involved in accidents , contacted death numerous times. But he kept reviving. He just couldn't die. If he was stabbed, his wound would dissipate in five seconds. When his body parts were crushed completely a light would come from the skies and he would appear whole in ten seconds. When his arm was chopped off, the same thing would happen, and his arms would regenerate within a second. He cannot die. He has seen everything. He had went through everything.
He had seen enough. He had experienced enough. He soon sought out various methods to die. It tried to hang itself. That just didn't work. It tried to dunk itself in acid. That didn't work out too. It didn't die. It just became a useless thing. A dab of nothingness in the world's eye.
It didn't know the world was trying to send him a message.
It continues its cycle till now. Unable to find peace. For that is what he desired not to approach.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
If I had a Million Dollars...
5 Year Old Kid
If I had a million dollars, I will buy a big big house where mum and dad can live in! I will keep the money inside the bank and also donate the money to those in need!
10 Year Old Kid
If I had a million dollars, I will divide it into two. One half I will put into the bank, and the other half I will reward my mum and dad, plus my family. Besides that, I will donate some of the money to charity.
20 Year Old Young Adult
If I had a million dollars, I will divide it into four. I will use one half to invest in a trusted company, one to keep in the bank, another to take care of my family and the rest for my daily life and charity.
Some Hokkien Singer
Na si wa wu ji ba ban
Ji ba ban
Wa wu ji ba ban
Ji si lang jiu keng sang~~~
Some Old Person With White Hair
If I had a million dollars I will keep them all, buy a big big mansion.. a private jet.. etc
Some other Old Person
If I had a million dollars I will keep them inside Swiss Bank!
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Remember that question most English teachers used to ask when you were in kindergarten... school... and even during college or some occasions?
Yes. That question. That one question about how many children you would want to have when you get married (or not) in the future. No, I'm just kidding. Its the question that asks what you would do IF you had a million dollars.
Hey, one million dollars is ONE MILLION DOLLARS. That seven digit 1000000. The scope is wide indeed, but lets just narrow it down to the money in my resided country. RM1000000. You can do alot with RM1000000, oh yes you can. This amount of money is a rarity among the people, heck even I don't have that much. I am sceptical about anyone I know having such a huge amount of money, too. Oh wait, I do. I have about three million zennies in Ragnarok Online. whew. Well that sucks. I'm an utter failure.
ANYWAYS. You can really do alot with RM1000000. See that 10 year old kid with his ideals? Do you think anyone could let them handle the RM1000000 alone in the first place? Heck, no one in the right mind would do so. BUT THATS THE WHOLE POINT OF IT. Even I am not so sure that the kid would carry out what he said. The money will probably be drained up in a moment- becoming a kingdom of sweets and cakes and toys. I know, I just used and two times consecutively. I fail at English.
So see, how could a person survive with just RM1000000 alone? After he has finished buying a house, a car , all the necessaries.. these huge digits would probably exhaust to none. To hell with dividing it into four or six equal pieces. Its not like we are cutting cakes or pizza in maths, its money! Okay, no. Its a great idea to divide it, really. I wonder why I just criticized that method.
If someone asked me what I would do if I had a million dollars years ago, I would be like : Oh, I will give some to my parents, use some to buy a big house.. use some to... and it will go on and on. Its a seriously never ending cycle.
If someone asked me now, I would snap back and ask million dollars worth of what? If they give me cow dung I will just use them to fertilize the soil and plant something on it. Its better than having these money, look at it and drool for eternity. I dont know what I am talking about.
Hey, I think I would probably go on and on about this and never end this post. Everyone knows an essay should end with a conclusion- so here goes.
In conclusion, I conclude the essay. Thank You.
I would be getting 0% for this for sure!
If I had a million dollars, I will buy a big big house where mum and dad can live in! I will keep the money inside the bank and also donate the money to those in need!
10 Year Old Kid
If I had a million dollars, I will divide it into two. One half I will put into the bank, and the other half I will reward my mum and dad, plus my family. Besides that, I will donate some of the money to charity.
20 Year Old Young Adult
If I had a million dollars, I will divide it into four. I will use one half to invest in a trusted company, one to keep in the bank, another to take care of my family and the rest for my daily life and charity.
Some Hokkien Singer
Na si wa wu ji ba ban
Ji ba ban
Wa wu ji ba ban
Ji si lang jiu keng sang~~~
Some Old Person With White Hair
If I had a million dollars I will keep them all, buy a big big mansion.. a private jet.. etc
Some other Old Person
If I had a million dollars I will keep them inside Swiss Bank!
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Remember that question most English teachers used to ask when you were in kindergarten... school... and even during college or some occasions?
Yes. That question. That one question about how many children you would want to have when you get married (or not) in the future. No, I'm just kidding. Its the question that asks what you would do IF you had a million dollars.
Hey, one million dollars is ONE MILLION DOLLARS. That seven digit 1000000. The scope is wide indeed, but lets just narrow it down to the money in my resided country. RM1000000. You can do alot with RM1000000, oh yes you can. This amount of money is a rarity among the people, heck even I don't have that much. I am sceptical about anyone I know having such a huge amount of money, too. Oh wait, I do. I have about three million zennies in Ragnarok Online. whew. Well that sucks. I'm an utter failure.
ANYWAYS. You can really do alot with RM1000000. See that 10 year old kid with his ideals? Do you think anyone could let them handle the RM1000000 alone in the first place? Heck, no one in the right mind would do so. BUT THATS THE WHOLE POINT OF IT. Even I am not so sure that the kid would carry out what he said. The money will probably be drained up in a moment- becoming a kingdom of sweets and cakes and toys. I know, I just used and two times consecutively. I fail at English.
So see, how could a person survive with just RM1000000 alone? After he has finished buying a house, a car , all the necessaries.. these huge digits would probably exhaust to none. To hell with dividing it into four or six equal pieces. Its not like we are cutting cakes or pizza in maths, its money! Okay, no. Its a great idea to divide it, really. I wonder why I just criticized that method.
If someone asked me what I would do if I had a million dollars years ago, I would be like : Oh, I will give some to my parents, use some to buy a big house.. use some to... and it will go on and on. Its a seriously never ending cycle.
If someone asked me now, I would snap back and ask million dollars worth of what? If they give me cow dung I will just use them to fertilize the soil and plant something on it. Its better than having these money, look at it and drool for eternity. I dont know what I am talking about.
Hey, I think I would probably go on and on about this and never end this post. Everyone knows an essay should end with a conclusion- so here goes.
In conclusion, I conclude the essay. Thank You.
I would be getting 0% for this for sure!
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Oh, to you
I offer my sincere-most apologies. I dint mean to poke my nose into your issues, haha. Its just that months ago we were so close we shared all our issues. Well, mostly mine, but heck cares *kicks self* we were getting too busy with our own stuff that we forgot to interact and joke with each other (well mostly me again) When this new situation comes up I just got so interested I began to do some researches out on my own that dint involve anybody else, honestly. No one else was involved, but I already know a little about everything, maybe its a personal secret ability of mine- tsk tsk.
I am so terribly sorry for disrupting your fun, I just thought that that is what friends are supposed to do- or maybe that is only what I think. I'm an annoying person, really. I've heard that alot. I guess I should stop with the prod with your life, even though I am already so damn bored with life- what a cruel thing life is, to give someone the burden of acting optimistic so that everyone else can gain the optimism of the act. Hey what did I just say? I cant brain that.
Okay, I guess thats it, I won't ever disturb you anymore- and an advice, go for it. tsk tsk.
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Above is an emo message writted by a sinister emo person who thinks that he is emo but actually he is not. No one actually reads this sheet anyways.
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Damn psychology. I've used too much until whatever I do is looked upon as an act of psychology. Its sincere okay. I don't use damn psychology so lightly.
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Hey these lines are pretty. lets use more
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oh well, I guess I should really stop. But wait! one last one
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OxO
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rofl.
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lmao.
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Damn I cant stop.
I am so terribly sorry for disrupting your fun, I just thought that that is what friends are supposed to do- or maybe that is only what I think. I'm an annoying person, really. I've heard that alot. I guess I should stop with the prod with your life, even though I am already so damn bored with life- what a cruel thing life is, to give someone the burden of acting optimistic so that everyone else can gain the optimism of the act. Hey what did I just say? I cant brain that.
Okay, I guess thats it, I won't ever disturb you anymore- and an advice, go for it. tsk tsk.
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Above is an emo message writted by a sinister emo person who thinks that he is emo but actually he is not. No one actually reads this sheet anyways.
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Damn psychology. I've used too much until whatever I do is looked upon as an act of psychology. Its sincere okay. I don't use damn psychology so lightly.
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Hey these lines are pretty. lets use more
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oh well, I guess I should really stop. But wait! one last one
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OxO
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rofl.
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lmao.
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Damn I cant stop.
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